every mini things in my life

SCAREDd ish da ONLY word.

2006-12-07T11:55:00.000+08:00

two weeks plus since i last blogged. within three weeks. i dreamt of him THRICE. lOlx. those dreams were super nice man. t-heex. hmms. goin fer my back op soon. was supposed to b on 26 jan but moved ferward to 19dec. tis month!!~ in less than 2 weeks. haix. im sho worriied and scared. freakked out too. vent out all my fears thru my tears. afraid to face it. im scared of the PAIN. rahx. hav to stay in da hosp fer 1 week. =( mus b painful and boring. tiring too i guess. okayys. nth much to say on too. GOD BLESS ME pls.

RAiiNiiE dayy.

2006-11-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

hmms. woke up at eight plus in da morniing. had breakfast whiile watching some morning progs. met up wid yvonne at 12.30pm. but. i was late. hahax. reached at ard 12.43pm. hahax. sorriies sorriies. blehx. went over to NUOVO where vanessa liives. hahax. she booked da karaoke room where we all sat down and waited fer thiings to happen. hahax. hmms. took quite some time fer her and justin to figure those technical stuff. we were there towatch dvds on wedding and court scenes fer our production next year. but only me.yvonne.kamesh.justin.zhengjie and vannesa turned upp. *disappoints* kamesh was quite niice todae. sho unliike his usual self. lOlx. ohyaa. jinshii went too. =) da entire thingg was sort of. ended up wid almost nth done. hahax. okayys. tml gotta wake up at 7.45am. make pancakes. and set off to city hall meet peeps and go SUPREME court to hear a trial. alsho fer production. sho excited. hahax. okayys. see ya. blehx.

FUNtasia.

2006-11-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

lala. woke up at 7 plus in da morningg. prepared stuffs fer da jumble sale. make out 46 paper-cards all by hands. i rite all myself lehx. cos if go fotocopy stil need xtra money lehx. tats why tis way can save cost price. ohman. stomachache agaiin. aches fer sho many daes les. sometimes stil gotta rush to da loo sia. siian. PAiNpaiin. arghhx. met up wid yvonne at 2pm. before was playin maple. stil stuck at lvl 48. siiansiianSiiAN!!~ went popular at sunplaza and go macs to write out some cut-outs fer da labellings etc. then. went cheri and bought two packs of fishing toys fer da stall. and bcos 3 toys fer ten bucks. we bought one more. tat is a pack which contaiins about 6 mini hulahoops and u have to throw it into a stand. hahax. CHIICKEN!!~ lOlx. but jus buy lo. fanzheng 3 fer tenbucks mahx. tat clement uh. ask me if gt sell marshmallows during da sale. LOLx. marshmallow sho important uh. =( ish SUPPORT more important mahx. hahax. reached hme and do some touch-ups on da labelling. ltr mayb goin do da signboard. hahax. i lurv to do tis type of stuff. i only did da labelling fer 'THE RIGHT ONE' des game. yups. yvonne do da darts ones. hahax. da other two games des haven do. lala. went sembawang mart after tat too. go look fer styrofoam box. HENG ah. we manage to gt one wid da help of one nice auntiie. THANKs. okayys. pened down almost evryth les. yups. BUHBYE!!~

prepe fer fund raising.

2006-11-16T11:13:00.000+08:00

hmms. ive booked a stall fer my class during da jumble sale on 26th nov. it will b jus below my block!!~ woooo. its at da open graden in front of blk503C. yups. ytd me and yvonne went sun plaza to buy those lucky draw prizes and all sorts of stuff that we need to set up our STALL. t-heex. looking forward to tat man. seems FUN. our stall name will b FUNtasia. hahax. yvonne's idea. hmms. looking at da calendar. i ve jus found out tat i ve broken up wid him fer 6 months plus les. haiix. one old phrase again. TIME FLIES. it reallie does. hahax. todae gt amaths tuition. second time goin les. but tis time. JASON's joining us. hahax. met my pri skoo fren there too. ohya. ytd i DIVORCED wid shaun(maple) already. bit saddening. hahax. but he's gt himself a real liife stead les lahx. he damn li hai sia. 3 daes jiu gt da gal to b his stead. hahax. JIAYOUJIAYOU =) at zipangu now. da monsters either too hard or too easy. siian. but da town's veh interestiing lehx. da sauna rawks lyk hell. some gacha items alsho got sell in weapon shops les. muahahaha. bought da GReENn paint brush. lala. now goin send an email to evryone to ask them support my class on 26 NOV. wheex!!~

ARGH !@#$%^&*

2006-11-07T11:54:00.000+08:00

damn damn long nv POST les. hmms. did i mention anyth about my results? guess not. hmms. i was PROMOTED to sec 4 EXPRESS!!~ hahax. hmms. my average improved. my l1r5 improved too. from 31 to now 27. stil LOUSY. hahax. but im jus glad tat i improved. mostly was pulled down from da upper part of da year des results. ROARs. hmms. listening to some songs now. lala. after struggling fer sho long. i finally reach lvl 48(maple). hahax. hmms. and last week. i had my o lvl chi. da paper was TRICKY!! wlao. sho hard to make choices. alot of answers were veh close. hahax. compo i guess was stil alright. now stil gotta go bacl skoo fer extensive classes. better than stay at hme i hope. hahax. those lessons are ending soon. ending tis fri. yups. todae no lesson. lala. playing solitaire tis few days. hahax. too BORED you see. hmms. having cramps tis few days. ytd went toilet FOUR tiimes lehx. cos laosai. wth lo. haiix. todae feeling a bit better. dunch noe if ltr goin to eat sakae wid yvonne they all anot. mus see if ltr stil gt go loo anot. haha. shaun playin dota. zz. =/ im NOT INTERESTED. hahax. blah.blah.blah. goin hav science tuition from dec onwards. wid JUNE!!~ hahax. at sembawang. lala. then goin hav addmaths tuition wid MINGHUI.JASON.JUNE!!~ wheex. sho cool rite? da class only gt 4 of us. woa. all same skoo. same class. lookiing forward to it. hahax. =P jus gt a hair cut on sat. quite like it. blehx. went toapayoh. etc etc to buy clothes. fer my dad's best fren des wedding tis coming fri. hahax. bought a GREEN top. hahax. green!!~ and a sleeveless white jacket to go over it. alsho. a denim skirt. bought a pair of GREEN sandals. lala. im goin damn GREEN!!~ t-heex. spent bout sixty plus plus of my mum's money. lala. my mum cooking da ginko nuts barley wid beancurd or sth lyk tat des dessert. YAYs. i lurv it u noe. im goin to TEST it right now. buhbye!!~

feeling DOWN right now.

2006-10-22T20:14:00.000+08:00

since last night. i ve been feeling sho damn down. slept at twelve last night. woke up at 8.30 tis morning. jus feel lyk goin blind tml. i dunch wanna look at da date. haiix. i'll jus make myself busybusy tml. and i wun tink of anyth then. lala. consider tat as a way to avoid bahx. hmms. mapled fer about 2 hrs todae. lvled ytd. lvl 47 currently. while waiting fer pq todae. gt one bitch hu was yacking away. critising my pet and me. wtf lahx. tink her bunny veh cute uh? ohman. her bunny and her jus sucks. im sho DISGUSTED. but shaun helped mie out!! t-heex. lala. he scolded da gal and helped me vest all those anger out. went to fm and sold off my scroll for claw att. RPGaia wasnt online tis few days. and so. i jus sold it off at 1.2m but u noe. RPGaia offered at 1.8m hahax. nvm. jus tat 600k. lala. stil waiting to sell off my scroll for shoes for jump. i wanna sell it off at a higher price!!~ i dunch wanna sell it off at one m. bu gan xing. i wann get it off at 1.4m. HURMPHx. tinking back in time. last year. tis very night. i cried. but those tears were worth it. now. even if i tear. it will only be tears of misses and bitterness. TIME FLIEs. okayys. guess im goin in maple to find shaun. or rather try to sell off my scroll at 1.4m or at least 1.2m. yups.

p.s. IF YOU SEE YVONNE and ME SELLING FOOD TML. PLS SUPPORT US!!~ THANKUYTEx =)

LAXATIIVE?!

2006-10-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

oops. eating FROZZ now. its a sweet in case u dunch noe. ive bought da lime mint one. cos its GREEN in color!!~ t-heex. hmms. reading behind da contents area. i saw sth. EXCESS CONSUMPTION MAY HAVE A LAXATIVE EFFECT. u noe wats laxative? relate it to emptying bowels oftenly. lao sai u noe? hahax. sho unglam. hmms. chatting wid clement now. hmms. rarely tok to him nowadays. hahax. rmb. RESERVE A PACK OF MARSHMALLOWs fer CLEMENT!! hahax. he asked if i still MISS him. lOlx. wat u tink? DRAW ME AWAY FROM THE PAST. lala. sho many caps in this post. sorriie. hahax. whats love? its jus a funny little thiing. perhaps a type of entertainment of life to some people. but to some other people. love is just evryth. am i one of those who treat love as evryth? i hope im not. it will jus b hard on myself if i am. okayys. gonna watch tv les. buhbye!!~

p.s. da day's arriving agaiin. and sho fast. a year's flying past soon.

melacholy

2006-10-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

hmms. exams ended. no stress. no pain. hahax. its october again. i really hate this. guesthouse's over. i didnt went. hahax. 2e chalet's nxt. and im skipping it. i jus dunch noe why. i hav totally no mood into all this. its jus sho unusual of me. i wonder too. ponder too. busy mapling all these days. bought myself a black pig. todae. it finally lvled til 10!!~ sho cute. its my best partner in maple. alsho. nt fergetting my maple dear. t-heex. he gt me two prepaid cards. and tats why i gt to buy a violet strapless dress. tiara. blush and of cos my pig. but wid my own top-up of a five dollars prepaid card. lala. i wann a lollipop!!~ its sho cute too. hahax. shaun tat dae jus gave me a holy-cross earrings. its damn nice. glam. lalalala. he told me tat he was angry wid june. hmms. okays. gonna check out da maple forum. buhbye.

p.s. i still miss him!!~

MIssEs and ONLY MIssEs of HIM.

2006-10-09T20:51:00.000+08:00

hmms. quite long before i last blogged. currently studyiing fer tml s physics exam. its da last paper les. *smiles* tml alsho ish my sista's last psle paper(HMT). my studying process todae ish stil quite okay. evry physics thing went in smoothly sho far. todae's a.maths paper was HORRIBLE!! i tiink mayb i may score less than 20 marks man. haiixyo. after da paper. i nearly cried. i couldnt believe tat i actually was sho damn poor in da subject til da stage tat more than half of da paper i couldnt do it. *disapoiints* hope my physics paper wunch be lyk tis. *prays* I MIss HIM!!~ seriously. right from my heart. *winks* wish him gud luck fer his exams too. anw. my OBsEssION of HIM fell. from 99% to now only aroud 25%. i stil lurv him. but not tat OBSESSED. which i now see it as a gud sign. wheex!!~ CONGRATs to myself. t-heex. gonna buck up les. buhbye and gud luck to you hu s reading my blogg.

explosiion!!

2006-09-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

ARGHs. my head ish exploding!! feeling tat my head's damn full and nothing more could be stuffed into it. ROARs. had english paper one and two todae. fer paper one. i ve written topic no.2 =) da topic ish: you have suffered because of another person's actions. its da only narrative topic. i dunch wanna fail agaiin tats why i chosen this. my compo was roughly on a girl who has a strange personality. always alone. but one fine day. one of her classmates asked her out on a shopping spree. feeling excited and nervous. she looked forward to it. evrytthing was fine til her fren, named joyce. dragged her into a gorgeous accesories shop. joyce stole a pair of earrings and dropped it into her bag. this was joyce's intention of landing her into trouble. my compo ended wid this: There I was, sitting in a corner, suffering because of Joyce's actions. hahax. you may be wondering why i used da name joyce. cos its da only name tat floats to my mind at tat moment!! hmms. mapled fer an hour. fone low batt sho cant continue sms-ing toby gor. paiiseh =X after exams today, stil stayed back fer two maths test. both emaths and addmaths. emaths one was fair. while addmaths one was quite hard. cos i didnt study at all man. then. went to khatib des mac to hav lunch and to study wid june. its da first time tat we studied sho quietly!! she seems sho serious. sho pms. she only spoke a few words and seems sho engrossedin her doing of notes. lOlx. i was studying ss and reading thru some lit research. rahhhx. there's too much to study les. im goin madd!! someone pls help me with my sciences. esp chemistry!!~ GREAT HELP NEEDED URGENTLY!!!

tiringg skoo day.

2006-09-27T20:34:00.000+08:00

raahhx. bough twisties salmon terriyaki to skoo today. had it during eng lesson. we gt caught fer eating and hav to surrender our food and clean up da class. sho LAME!! lOlx. hmms. luckily our food left with only alittle. less than 20g i guess. hahax. blehx. after recess had chi lesson. slept in class. woox. sho tired man. after tat had THREE amaths periods. quite boriing. but i was paying my fullest attention. my twin sista, xuena had an arguement wid ms tang. it was quite humourous and vera was laughing off right in front of ms tang. lOlx. =P ms tang was sho calm yet when scolding people. stil having her logic-mind. hahax. had physics spa. quite pek cek. sho hard to balance da ruler. but at last i did balanced it. hahax. hmms. me and vanessa actually intended to go back class to take graph paper. but ended up walking rounds to find mr ng. to ask if da ss remedial ish stil on. didnt managed to find him and return to da lab after quite sometime. mr tan said tat we were BANNED from goin out of da lab nxt time. ROARs. =( whatever nahx. went back to class. preparing to go fer either geog or ss. but ss was actually cancelled!! hahax. had ham&cheese toast and two hotdogs fer lunch. went to ava room fer geog wid threefaith. da remedial was sort of WASTE OF TIME sia. went to sun plaza des mos wid yvonne and studied fer an hour. went hme and jus sort out my lit notes. hahax. opps. gotta go toilet les. meeting my client from india!! buhbye!!~

p.s. give it your all and leave no regrets =)

HURMPHx!!

2006-09-26T21:16:00.000+08:00

if you have noticed. my msn font color is nt found in da color range. now. i fergt how i change da shade!! shaun said clicked on change color. but there's no palette. tats why cant change. but why shaun can? wth. wth. wth. ROARS!! WHY. i wanna change. why last time can now cant.

UNFAIR. HURMPHx. tml gt chapel. yays. hurrays. hmms. after skoo todae. went hme to hav lunch and hav my bath of cos. after tat wen to sembawang mart to meet jason. june and yvonne. study social studies and studied chapters 2.3.5. left wid 6.7.8. hahax. hmms. getting sho SICK of maths man. yucks. during chem lesson todae. june sat wid me at da back of da class. as glory nv come again. sobs. hmms. we didnt pay attention at all and guess wat. we re doin our personal mind map. its sort of lame but u noe. its more interesting than chemistry. hahax. blehx. tis sat morning at 10am again hav tuition at mr shong's hse. raaahx. after tat stil need to rush down to compass point. fer chemistry remedial wid mrs andrews. mitchell.steph.justina.zhengjie too. DEAR JUNE!! pei mie go on sat plss. hahax. i dunch wan go alone =( scared of loneliness. hope glory's getting better by tml =) anw. if you noe how to change da shade of da color. pls teach mie!! (im using windows live)

p.s. have i lost my feelings fer him and starting to have feelings fer another? i hope not =/

HOTY weather.

2006-09-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

woa. da weather's horrendous todae. sho humid. stuffy. hot!! hahax. hmms. love todae's pe lesson. cant catch quite a few balls but towards da end. i managed to catch 3 i tink. hahax. blehx. and da MITCHELL POON ahhh. gonna kill you. hahax. he sho da wat.. clement and him sho talk-alike. hahax. hmms. waited quite long fer june to go fer tuition todae. i sweated lyk hell lo. AHEM. late queen. hahax. went bk todae and had war of ice. benedick and beatrice had war of words while we have war of ice. hahax. fer more details on tat. go june's blog. hahax. im goin to orhorh les. didnt see mr. PAPERman online. bit disappointing. hahax. but i feel tat my feelings fer him seems to be fading off slowly day by day. hope its a good sign. hahax. okiiex. HARDY is da singapore idol. hahax. grats to him. and im goin off to my dreamland. gudnitex evryone on Earth and may Glory gets well soon!! =)

NEW!!

2006-09-24T10:33:00.000+08:00

heyys. jus changed my blogg skiin two days ago. spent about two hours making those amendments. hahax. tis new skin has got my fav. color. GREEN!! heex. i love those small navigation pics at da side. fer music player. used radio.blog ones. i dunch reallie like it. but i dunch noe which other players tat can use. tis one dunch hav autoplay. nid click on da PLAY button. ROARS. tried using iWEb once. but i dunch lyk it. gt lots of pop-ups and sho on. some ppl even say tat one will kena virus? i alsho dunch noe. hmms. gonna start study alittle of social studies todae. heex. ytd went to da national lib wid yvonne and june. took da train til city hall and alighted. had subway meal. i ve gt my self da cold cut trio. sho did da both of them. da honey oat bread was fragrant and nice. yumyum. da hams were quite yummie too. da vege tasted quite fresh =X hmms. then we walked all da way to national lib. on da way. pass by an old house. ragged. jus opp. suntec. june said tat its rumoured to be haunted. upon hearing tat. we all quickened our pace. muahahahax. peep inside thru all those bushes. it seems reallie eerie in there. yvonne said its one of da mass shooting place during da japanese occupation!! ohman. scarie enuff. reached da national lib and headed to da washroom. sort of lyk da sensor thinggie tat gives off light at da basin. hahax. hmms. nth at da second floor except a washroom. lOlx. wasted. b1 ish da central lending lib. while lvl7-13 was lee kong chian lib. wooox. love it there. things tat mayb harm da books couldnt b brought in, therefore placed our bags in da lockers outside. searched fer much ado about nth guides and we managed to have some harvest. hahax. stayed in da fotocopy room fer quite long and i bought a cashcard. hmms. da room gt one funny smell. cant reallie stand it. headed home after tat. but before goin hme. we went to old changkee to buy some food. gt myself a yamcake and da seafood jiaozi thingie. when waiting fer june to pay. i was looking at da shop. looking at da food and jus looking around. da cashier lady suddenly raise her head and said: she3 me4. wat da hell lahx. nv look at her wat. yvonne said tat she bit siiaox ones. her attitude was bad. nt only i tink sho. june. yvonne tinks sho too. went hme and mapled awhile. sort of bored. at nite mum and dad went j8 to buy mooncakes. they met my dad's fren there. he works at shangrila hotel as a chef. he's nt a normal chef. but quite a high rank ones. dad and mum gt mie a bird nest mooncake from tat hotel. wheex. it costs 13 bucks!! its lyk those smallest size des snowskin mooncake and yet it cost sho ex. but it really tasted yummy!! wooox. msged toby til 11.30 then went off to sleep. zz.

=/

2006-09-21T21:58:00.000+08:00

thiird post today les. suddenly jus have an urge to tell mr.PAPER how much i still love him. hm. but you know. not everything shld or rather can be done as you wish. listening to some songs. nice nice songs. jay chou's old songs. i reallie love you no matter wat. im sho tangled in all these. why. why jus cant those feelings go away. i wanna lead a sweet simple life. and not a saddening complicated life. i didnt regret loving. i hope neither did you. after sho long. im stil feeling lost in all these. WHY mayb wat your tinking. cause da feelings jus didnt fade off. its still there. as strong. its like sho stuck in my heart. causing mie to feel sho horrible. letting go may seems easy. but its like sho hard fer mie. there's too many things tat i cant figure out. you may tink im a fool. clinging in sho hard. and i tink i am one. im a fool who dunch noe how to let go. and dunch even noe wats letting go. gonna type down da small post-it tat glory gave mie. sort of a type of encouragement. there it goes.. '' As children bring their broken toys, with tears for us to mend, I brought my broken dreams to God, because He is my friend. But then instead of leaving Him in peace to work alone, I hung around and tried to help, with ways that were my own. At last, I snatched them back again and cried,''How can you be so slow?'' ''My child'' He said,''What could I do? You never did let go.'' its like. sho meaningful to mie. means alot to mie. although onlie a few sentences. it brings out a person who trys to let go yet indirectly clinging on even harder. and it seems sho much lyk mie. im sho. STUBBORN. arent i? haiix. feeling veh mixedup currently. sometimes. jus feel lyk plucking up da courage to tell him da three simple words. but. i jus failed once. twice. again and again. im reallie tired. please. BRING ME OUT OF ALL THESE.

argh.

2006-09-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

ROARS. plus ROARS plus dozens of ROARS. my neighbouring block des liftt alarm ringiing non-stop!! driiving miie madd. sho fed-up. arghhs. no mood to study fer geog. mrs samantha lim nv teach then alsho nv even put pwerpt slides fer it at mlg. how to study you tell mie. tink i super uh. freakkedout.

sort of..

2006-09-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

hmms. jus briefly looked thru da physics chapter 3 and 4. five leave it til tml last min then study. waiit. go see tml des timetable first. HENG!!~ after geog ish lit and chem. not physics. physics ish jus before assembly. prays tat there's assembly tml. cos i love assembly. then i can see my mr.PAPER!! wheex!!~ =) now trying to study fer geog sho put mr.PAPER aside first. hmms. chapter8-10 was not even taught lo. then now wanna test us on tat. zz. no notes were posted on mlg alsho. wat da hell isit man. freakiing holy shyt. ROARS. dunch try to test my patience or wat. cos i hav loads. hahax. hmms. okiie. sort of pms today. from start til end of physics lesson. raaahhx. i alsho dunch understand. i jus pms bcos of nth!! nobody pissed mie off. nothing happen agitating mie. totally nothing!! perhaps its NOTHING tat makes mie go pms. hahax. lame lo. from ytd ( forbidden city play ) til todae. kamesh ish irritating mie like hell. its sort of suay to sit behind him ytd. hahax. he ish IRRITATING. i dunch like him. but i dunch really hates him. he's still not til da point of stage tat i will HATE. hahax. guess he's jus trying to be funny and tink's he ish god's hand. lOlx. zz. =.= shall not sayy too much. not much time left to study les. buhbye. and gudnitex.

p.s. shaun didi ahhh. better rmb do ur hw. if not get sent out of class agaiin =/

here i am.

2006-09-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

jus finish my dinner. my face seems sho red!! dunch noe why. hmms. got lots to blog todae. sho jus bare wid mie. =p had chapel service todae. hm. principal says tat one-third of da skoo shall stand to admit(talking) or da entire skoo will stand at da parade ground. stil say: one fer all. all fer one. zz. no sense!! cant she jus pick up those students hu r talking thruout da service? i was veh sure tat my row. mie. yvonne. jinshi. mitchell. didnt spoke a single word. as fer others. im uncertain. but yet. to make up one-third of da population. our whole class stood up!! come on. i tink we re sort of brave. not trying to boast off or wat. we re told to apologise to those pastoral care peeps. i jus went pass them and said: sorrie sorrie sorrie. i said it sort of fast and w/o and feelings. cos i was lyk feeling sho da ''zz'' mood. hm. gt back to class. home period. mrs soh was disapointed in our class as she THOUGHT tat our entire class talked thruout da entire chapel service. ohman. god's sake. how can it be lo. DUNCH TELL MIE TAT EVERY SINGLE ONE IN DA CLASS ISH TALKING W.O EVEN A SINGLE EXCEPTION? IMPOSSIBLE was da onlie word. yet she reallie tot all of us were talking. it doesnt pay to be kind!! but. i dunch reallie blame mrs soh. i could tell tat she's upset and extremely disappointed in us. after all. we re here form class. we were told to write a reflection. my tone used in it was sort of slightly to da negative side. quite strong. i was sho grandmother sia. rite fer about 5/6 of a page. lOlx. hm. had amaths after recess. 3 periods lehx. hard to let time pass during tat. a gal came into our class and asked fer sth. ms tang was totally SOUR. hahax. and da gal left running off. as if she had met a ghost or sth. its lyk. sho funny!! glory's laughing lyk madd. =p finallie left skoo at 1.45 fer FORBIDDEN CITY SHOW AT ESPLANADE!! wheeex!!~ went subway(marinasquare) to have lunch. had a meal. drink.doublechoccookie.oventoastedchicken'wich. quite nice wid bbq sauce. hm. da drink i pressed was coke. but coming out was sth disgusting and tasteless. guess its balnd coke( too much water). hahax. sth's wrong wid da drinks' dispenser i guess. but didnt asked fer a refund. hm. da cookie rawkx. mitchell.steph.glory.sean and zhengjie all eat sho fast!! i couldnt even finish it. hahax. if we were to go fer dining etiquette. guess we all will FAIL except glory. hahax. went off to esplanade. run across da 4 lane-road. i was damn scared. im scared of crossing road tat are wider than 3 lanes. hahax. sho KONGBU!! went into da theatre. alsho had a bag check before being allowed to enter. then i found out tat HIM was there too. was bit paiseh. my seat was in da middle and i had to squeeze thru those ppl.(yvonne.yinxiuetcetc.) hahax. my seat was directly in da middle!! hahax. actuallie our skoo manage to get da front seats. its guddiegud. da show lasted fer about 2hrs plusplus. SUPERB was da word fer it. totally WORTH watching. went to breadtalk wid june to buy some bread. obviouslie. hahax. then headed home. the train was packed but we manage to secure a seat cos we took da marinabay side. hm. reached home. feeling veh tired. had a bath and took dinner and.. HERE I AM BLOGGING >.<

p.s. new name fer HIM=mr PAPER. hahax. ish he avoiding mie or sth? =X

emo.

2006-09-19T18:46:00.000+08:00

im sho freakiing EMO todae. totallie cant stand myself. cried twiice todae. once in skoo. once jus few moments ago. hmms. ordered mac todae. had da two bucks meal again wid ice milo. sean told mie nt to order. but.. its lyk sho many ppl's ordering. i dunch noe. i mean. perhaps todae's my last time ordering les bahx. sean's right. i do feel guilty. but why pick me out of sho many ppl? hm. cried cos of tat. bit dumb of mie ehhs? >< girl ="(">

blog.blog.

2006-09-18T21:32:00.001+08:00

wth. gt dunoo wat html error. all my typings gone. wtf. okiie. watever. lazie type agaiin.
p.s. i lay my love on you.

avoid.

2006-09-17T11:23:00.000+08:00

tat night. cant reallie get to sleep. lying on my bed. tinking of some stuff. my mind drifted to HIM again. recalled da times back. hm. time didnt wait fer mie. neither did him. remembered da very night tat we broke up. started to weep. a relationship ish indeed lyk a roller coaster. anytime. it may jus fly up to da highest point. but alsho. at any moment. it will jus flunk down lyk hell. UNCONTROLLABLE was da onlie word fer tat. a week haven saw him online. hm. trying sho hard to move on. but when ur trapped. its hard. u need to get rid of those roots(past) and take ur steps one by one. slowlie. carefullie. having a heart tat ish sho fragile n afraid of getting back to those roots again. yet. yearning fer those memories. its jus lyk a concept of a tree. when da tree grows bigger n older. evryth will starts to fade. but da roots of da trees ish stil da most important part. tats da hardest part fer u to get untangled.

p.s. comparing da past's HIM and da now's HIM, its a completelie different person.

warmiing mail.

2006-09-15T16:01:00.000+08:00

'' go see your inbox todae.'' tats all she told miie. i didnt sense anyth special. hahax. now. bathed. opened up my inbox and recieved an e-card from glory. lOlx. tats wat she was refering to. *smiles* lurv da card. THANKYOU glory. ur da best. hahax. replied wid an email and now blogging awae. to mie. tis blog ish jus somewhre i 'blahh' all my tots out. but as fer todae. not tat mood swing. todae's was stil fairly gud. ordered mac todae and thiings started goin all WRONG. xuena ordered during recess and da delivery ish expected to come during ms tang's lesson. its lyk a total OMG. hmms. but anw. threegrace lent a helping hand somehow. helped threehumility quite alot. thankyutex. hahax. ms tang was lte n when she came. onlie 5 min was left wid her. hahax. thank god. da mac delivery guy was shoove off i tink by da security guard or sth. we didnt noe wat happened. cos it was drizzling and no one went down to check. we didnt gt our food. =(. bit saddening but better than getting into a greater. deeper trouble. we are sort of blessed. heex. when i reach hme jus now. there was a strong chemical smell. yucks. cant stand it. invaded my nostrils and was entirelie suckie. sprayed air freshner all around. but da odour's stil there. eeee. but in da study room. its much better. gonna maple awhile as mum's sleeping. gud chance. im bit stressed out. dunch noe why. *ponders* i didnt even did anyth tat will stress mie out man. hahax. =p.

donghaeng.net.

2006-09-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

heyys. i encouraged all of ur to go tis site: www.donghaeng.net although im not a christian. but i was reallie. truelie touched by those comic flashs. they were sho cute n meaningful. hmms. practised alittle of a.maths n emaths todae. but okiie. i hav a plan in mind les. hahax. blehx. recentlie sho manie anonymous ppl added mie in msn. all maple peeps. no idea how they gt my email. hahax. okiie. hm. *deep tots* hahax. tis few daes nv see him onliine. wonders why. honestlie. i do miss him. but sometimes. some feelings jus cant or rather shldnt b expressed. perhaps tis way its better fer evryone. =). shaun( my godbro ) ish pissing miie off tis few daes. *ROARS* noe ur limits man. mrs soh showed us a pwerpt slide during CF todae. it ish quite cute and some verse reallie makes mie go deep deep deep down into my heart and mind.. to tink!! hahax. =p. after skoo stil had higher chi xtra class. ended at around 4pm. went to sun plaza's mac to study. wid justina. joseph and june. told loads of jokes and all da 4 of us were laughing awae. heex. ^^. btw. da ppl at da tables around us were listening to our conversations. zz. SUE U ARGH. hahax. okiieokiie. my eyelids are falliing n my eyes are closing. hahax. gudnitex.

p.s. hav i ever crossed your path? ..no matter wat. my love fer u will nv change..

it all starts out as a fren.

2006-09-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

lolx. my fren told mie tis: it all starts out as a fren. lolx. how true ish tis sentence. hahax. i dunch reallie noe tat fren. maple fren actuallie. hahax. jus now went MOS at sun plaza wid june to practise maths. quite okiie. didnt slack at all. but jokes did flooded us. hahax. shaun said tat he scored da 2nd highest fer history in da whole of sec two!! woa. gratx. ^^ gongxi. hahax. hm. mayb ltr goin continue do some maths questions agaiin bahx. see first. mus depend on my mood. ohya. ytd msn cant sign in. lOlx. hm. pingping. im pingping!! hahax. hm. vera told mie sth todae. a GHOST story. hahax. wan to hear jiu come ask mie fer it bahx. =) shared it wid my sis n daddie. hahax. goin tell my sis da pingping ones now. blehx. okiie. buhbye. gudnitex.

p.s. my mind's stil revolving round HIM*.

raaahx.

2006-09-08T09:51:00.000+08:00

having flu.sorethroat and now one more. CRAMPS ><

dumbdumb.

2006-09-07T11:01:00.000+08:00

jus did todae's maths test. failed. roars. hahax. hm. okiie. ytd one's gt 14/20. nt bad sia. hm. i wanna maple!! gogo. 18% to lvl 43. jiayou~ hahax. gonna plae in da afternoon. watch mie lvl. heex. blehx. having flu n sore throat. pathetic sia. tml stil gt english oral at 2pm. 6.30pm stil nid go mediacorp studios fer da eldds thinggie. looking ferward to tat. heex. had a mini garndenia red bean bun in da morning. stomach feeling quite empty but dunch feel lyk eating. gas seems to be flying here and there in my stomach. hahax. gt a little tummyache man. yucks. feel lyk goin out todae. but go whre? singapore sho small. nowhere to go man. ew. go bugis? siianx. go expo fer food fair? cannt. having SORE THROAT.argh. go study? migth as well go shopshop. hahax. okiie. mayb gonna study on my own todae. on my sciences. too lousie in tat. toby ahh. teach mie how to gt into da mood to study!! lolx. shaun intro mie audition sea. he says its nice. *wonders* try it tml bahx. hahax. buhbye.

maths test!!

2006-09-04T11:10:00.000+08:00

jus done my matsh test. not enuff time at all man. didnt gt to complete da last three questions which add up to ten marks!! wat da hell lo. on front i onlie gt one wrong nia lehx. then cos of those 3 questions which i nv do. pull my marks sho down. but at least stil pass. but a lousie pass indeed. scored onlie 13 out of 25. *knocks wall* hahax. okiie. ytd PQed quite alot. heex. cos daddie n mummie were out half of da day. hm. gt two red hearted earrings n a skull earrings n of cos a red napo. blehx. hahax. sho fun man. lurvs alishar tat fat ass. muahahax. sho fun to fite. ohya. realised tat my range greatlie increased!! wheeex. tats a gud news man. *smiles* tis evening stil hav tuition. hahax. okiie. takkaire.

i wanna screamm.

2006-08-29T21:59:00.000+08:00

jus feel lyk screaming out now. right here. :: i reallie lurv u. ahhx. i reallie damn pek cek now lo. PMS i tink. hm. hope my moodswings arent coming back agaiin. pray hard.

p.s. there's nothing wrong loving a person.

happie bdae mummie!!

2006-08-29T20:10:00.000+08:00

mummiie i lurv u!! wheeex. tis year. i didnt buy stuff fer u. instead i whiip somethiing up. heex. cooked cream of mushroom. not cambelles one horx. ish i go find recipe n cook it myself des. thankuytex yvonne fer accompanying mie to ntuc to buy those ingred. heex. it rained n it was sho nice of yvonne's dad to drive us home. a BIG THANKYUTEx!! hahax. sista prepared baked potatoes fer u n tis weekend. she's gonna get my mummie a leather purse. wth. she's sho freakiing riich whiile im sho poor. BANKRUPT man. lolx. daddiie bought a cake. heex. okieokie. gonna heat up da soup fer my daddie. gudbye. i lurv u.

a fri seeming lyk a sat.

2006-08-25T20:46:00.000+08:00

hm. todae no skooliing. woked up at around seven thirty. mapled fer bout 45 min. da leader was quite PRO. hahax. keep dying ones lehx. but da leader. honestlie. was nice =). yvonne called mie up at round 10 plus. telling mie tat she couldnt go studie todae wid mie n joseph. cos she went running to da loo from ytd til todae. GET WELL SOON!! hm. sho met joseph up at 11.30. i predicted tat he will b late. sho patientlie waited fer him. hahax. smses glory while waiting. she asked mie a question. leaving mie tinking, whre do u tink u will go after u have died? hm. i've nv tot bout tis. made a simple reply. yet. i was doin some deep tinking. tinking bout da question. guess most people will go to hell. cos evryone's sinful!! hahax. alrite. joseph was late. fer boput 15 min. lolx. its perfectlie normal fer him to b LATE. hahahax. hm. took da train off to causewaypoint. intended to go library. but ended up in mos. hahax. practised add maths while he practised his e maths. hm. im reallie weak at my logarithms n functions. ohman. help mie!! i dunch even noe wat logarithms ish all about. *crys* todae was joseph's grandma bdae. 70 yrs old les. lolx. joseph was lyk cracking his head to tink wat to gt fer her. lolx. LAST MIN. hahax. hm. took bus hme at round 2 plus. saw my cousins on da way. went hme. slacked alittle. did some pges of geog. n SLACK SLACK. in da evening. slumped on da sofa. tinking all about da past. i mean. my mind's sho automatic bout tat. n alwaex tinking bout HIM agaiin. haiix. teared alittle. im trying hard to do without him n i believe i can do it. yeahx. dunch wanna mention too much bout him here. hahax. cos tis blog ish NOT about HIM onlie. its about EVRYTH in PEARLYN's LIFE!! hahax. he's nt my evryth. definitelie. todae seems lyk sat to mie. tml no nid go skoo again. hahax. okie. turn in earlie n stop reading les lahx. hahahax. =P.

p.s. stil finding a purpose to drive my life.

another deceiver.

2006-08-24T20:03:00.000+08:00

hm. got to noe tat theres another LOOK deceiver todae. heard from ppl.. hahax. hm. my daddie fixing my roomlight now. hao les =) thankuytex daddie!! i lurv u~ hahax. wheeex. hm. ytd daddie brought hme two small tubs of ice cream!! yipess. daddie. ur da BEST man. hahax. blehx. had quite a full dinner. but my stomach was not feeling veh well. tummyache. tink ish cos of da strawberry green tea i bought on my way hme bahx. =X. blame on myself fer being tanchi. hahax. mummie went off to da hosp to see my grandpa. dunch noe wat happened to him. *wonders* jus warmed up da soup fer daddie. now planning to MAPLE. heex. okieokie. buhbye.

haiix.

2006-08-23T21:01:00.000+08:00

im feeling sort of low now. sho manie thinggs are lyk just racing thru my mind. but they cant gt processed. cos i dunch hav an answer to them. feeling veh luanx. n tat stuupid guy. keep adding dozens of ppl into a conversation. STOP IT lahx. wth. mood alreadie veh bad les stil there plae plae plae. childish. hm. daddie's not hme yet. his company gt dunoo wat thingg goin on. sianx lahx. miss my daddie. hm. todae's horrible. HORRIBLE. p.s. u will nv noe wat im tinking. wat i wan. how i feel. although i seem OK.

23rd agaiin.

2006-08-23T19:38:00.000+08:00

hm. its da 23rd of da month agaiin. haiix. i lurv u!! ahhx. hm. okie. saw him in train ytd. when im on my way hme wid pompom. yvonne. minghui. yinxiu. germaine. ee hui. lolx. kennedy was toking wid him. hahax. hope his life ish getting better =). during chapel. keep tinking of my memories wid him. hm. beautiful ones. heex. hm. but its all over les lahx. aiyo. ppl around mie have all changed. from top to toe. dunch even noe their mindset n tots. too cheem fer mie les. hahax. jus wanna lead my life happilie n tats enuff. glory todae nv pms les. hahax. yeahhx. she brought skittles to skoo todae. but tis was different n special des. its from da states. hahax. ice cream flavored. lolx. bit guai guai des. but quite nice on da overall. hahax. hm. wats my world revovling around? stil da past or onlie those mask laughters. i reallie dunch understand myselff. hm. its COMPLICATED. raaaahx. many things are on my mind. but kinda stuck in there. not solved. not answered. but im no longer wanting answers nor resolutions. im onlie wanting a purpose of my life. hahax. okie. dunch get sho solemn anymore. hm. feel lyk playing maple but kinda sianx. shaun playing dota now. sort of quitted maple. nid find new maple bf perhaps. life's sho luan n boring at times. hahax. had a heavy dinner n feeling damn full now!! help man. downloading some songs. some hillsongs too. actuallie hillsongs are nice. hahax. ^^

p.s. imu* inu* ilu*

maple.maple.maple.

2006-08-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

ohman. i wanna maple!! suddenlie sho gaga over maple agaiin. cos im gonna lvl up les lo. wth. mummie~~ hahax. nvm. will try means of ways to plae maple. hahax. blehx. hm. okiie. dunoo y. keep tinking of him agaiin. raaaaahx. i lurv u!! lolx. hm. todae morning. standing at da mrt platform in sembawang. saw a guy hu ish sort of his type but in his 20s. hahax. da guy was lyk sho nice to his gf. his gf n him sho cute man. hahax. lurvlie couples. ^^ hm. okie. gonna play maple les. ( if onlie possible) hahax. miss ya. huggies. nitex.

fun?

2006-08-17T19:22:00.000+08:00

hahax. todae was quite boriing. nth much alsho. much ado bout NO THING. hahax. hm. mrs soh didnt came to class agaiin todae. played murderer in class. wheeex. it was fun. sho long since i ever played tat. hahax. perhaps u tot its childish but its reallie fun. hahax. hm. morning bought milk tea fer glory. hahax. *smiles* had higher mother tongue class after skoo. gt oral fer end of year. mine's tml. hahax. siianx ahhx. my av fer those six subjts onlie 57.5 nia!! *roars* anw. todae ish rachel bdae!! ~HAPPIE BDAE RACHEL~ sorrie nv pei u go orchard. paisehpaiseh. nxt time then pei u go out hav fun k? hahax. went hme wid june. had bubble tea agaiin. found out tat a guy was sort of tailiing us. watching us. siaox one. heariing our conversations. mad guy. UR INSANE!! sicko. dumb ass lahx u. he stil gave mie a stare when i was on my way hme. he stil tailed june til her hse tat area. ohman. but luckilie. nth happened to june. *phews* hahax. stuupid guy. bet he shld b too bored n hav nth to do. hahax. lolx. okieokie. gonna plae maple les. buhbye. ohya. rmb mie to sms clement ltr!! hahax. blehx.

ohman

2006-08-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

arghhs. firstlie. gt my geog paper. scored 17 out of 25. secondlie. social studies. scored 21 out of 25. didnt xpect tat fer my ss. tot will fail des lo. hahax. chi gt 67/100 onlie!! arghhs. sho freakiinglie upset. =( xpected sth starting wid a no.8 des lehx. okiieokiie. now. chemistry. faiil. but tis time at least gt 40/100. hahax. nt thrity sth anymore horx. e maths gt 24/40. add maths gt 28/40. hahax. add maths gt a2 sia. nv pass add maths before ones lehx. but guess ish cos tis time paper easier bahx. nxt time sure will fail agaiin les. physics. fail. arghhs. tot will at least gt a passing mark. but worse then chem. 16/50!! goshman. hahax. anw. stil gt lit n eng haven take. hope will b better tml =). hahax. chatting n blogging. hahax. i wanna go mapliing~~ blehx. but cant lahx. mummie controlling miie. wth. *sobsobs* god save miie!! june ish leveliing sho fast lo. nt faiir man. MUMMIE~~

driinkiing soupp.

2006-08-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

wheeez. driinkiing mummiie cook des soupp riite now. hahax. had some jellie thiingiie ice cream jus now. lolx. walls des. lychee flavor somemore. hahax. um. blog tml lahx. chattiing. damn bz. paiiseh.

2006-08-12T11:32:00.000+08:00

tis pic was last tiime des. my maple dear n miie. heex. cute horx. blehx. stil gt few more..

da beach one was taken at aqua road. heex.

hiGh.super hiGh!!

2006-08-11T20:15:00.000+08:00

wheeez. damn high todae. keep laughiing n laughiing. heex. ^^ had pizza hut fer lunch. had da chicken royale baked pasta. its veh creamie n cheesie. sho nice. suits my taste. hahax. after tat went to cwp there des nitemarket. there gt a stall. selling ear accesories. hahax. five pairs fer ten bucks. reasonable. lolx. wanted to buy three pairs des then ask june buy two. but then june was broke by then. hahax. wanna buy a zipper one. a adidas round stud. n a button one. but ended up onlie buy one. hahax. one cost 2.50. zzz. five then 10. anw. jus fifty cents more. there alsho dunch hav da nice nice button des tat im lookingg fer. saw tat there gt some machines to catch stufftoys agaiin. tried twice but failed. *sobsobs* wasted two bucks on tat. da first time was veh close. da grabber gt it. but when it was moving to da pit. it dropped!! raaaahx. jus lyk da other time. siianx. da stufftoys were maple monsters!! gt slimes. orangemushroom n ribbon pig!! hahax. wanted to buy octopus balls des. but feelingg too full les therefore gave it a miss. nxt time bahx. =P gonna plae maple in min time. hahax. okie. buhbye. gudnitex.

p.s. my throat ish in GREAT PAIIN>.<

p.s.s i miss his hugs. blehx.

super duper siickiish =/

2006-08-10T20:19:00.000+08:00

feeliing my bodyaches agaiin. somemore wid my sorethroat. raaaaaahx. yawns~ jus now went cycling. hahax. wid minghui. guess whre we go todae? all da wae til yishun. frm blk 200++ til 300++ hahax. rite til jinshi hse downstairs. blehx. stayed quite long at there des fitness corner. there des fitness corner sho fun. heex. ^^ hm. jus ate panadols agaiin. ltr goin eat strepsils. gettiing sicker n sicker of maple. sho siian. afternoon jus took ship go bac to vic. hm. chattiing wid clement now. hahax. lazie to replyy smses. no mood to. =X. my sista jus found a strand of RED haiir on my head. lolx. sho qiguai. mie hav red haiir? mie nv even go dye my haiir man. somemore its onlie one strand red nia. hahax. okiie. goin rest now. blehx. buhbye. gudnitex.

p.s. i miss u.

ndp rawkx!!

2006-08-10T11:37:00.000+08:00

omgg. ndp2oo6 rawkx totallie frm head to toe man~ wheeeex. ^^ hm. ytd met justina.minghui n joseph up at mrt station des munch hse. hahax. hm. evryone eat les xcept justina!! hahax. hm. took da traiin to marina bay n then transfered to a shuttle bus which takes us to da stadium site. thousands and millions of ppl were there man. sho squeezie n hot. stil gt to go thru a thinggiie which scans fer bombs n stuff. sho cool. hahax. managed to gt our goodies bag n place our butts somewhre opp da v.i.ps. lolx. evryth was in opp direction fer us. but one gud point was tat da fireworks was da closest to us!! heex. its veh veh nice. no words could described tat. heex. i still had a singapore flag tattoo on da right side of my face. ^^ justina's was spoilt. joseph n minghui were nt sportie n didnt put da tattoo. *roars* da fireworks flew up n da sky n at da same time. we felt some powderish stuff flying down on our faces too. yucks. no wonder those ppl sitting at da higher rows had umbrellas. muahahahax. minghui took videos n shots of da ndp stuff. one of da fireworks video was xtremelie nice!! damn freakiing high ytd. screamed lyk hell n now havingg sore throat. after da ndp. we waited fer da shuttlebus to take us to da marinabay mrt station. but guess wat. ECP there gt road accident. two lanes were blocked n we waited damn long fer one bus. gt to noe an auntie in front of us. she sho cute n funnie. heex. =P da four of us stil there trying to act short tongues. wahahahax. tried to tok lyk mrsim. mrchandra etcetc. sho funiie!! laughed my hearts out. *smiles* ohya. jus before we left da stadium. we took shots. ^^ nicenice. memories fer liife man. hm. we took da torchlight fone n strap fer our own fones. hahax. sho cool uh? lolx. hm. went plaza singapura fer mac initiallie. but then intended to eat pizzahut. walked thru two lvls of ps then found out whre pizzahut was. n guess wat. da sign CLOSED was seen. wthwthwth. then we decided on pastamania. tot damn hard on wat to eat. hahax. had al-funghi spaghetti. its shitake mushrooms!! heex. my fav mushroOms~~ hm. tat wid combo c. hahax. combo consists of a drink n garlic bread. da garlic bread suckx when compared wid pizzahut's. hahax. minghui ordered beef bolognese. while justina n joseph ordered ham n sausage baked rice. tried da first layer of joseph's. looked orange cheesie. tasted alrite. but when i scooped it wid da rice n cheese( of cos wid da orange cheesie top llayer). yuckx was da onlie word fer tat. no wonder joseph n justina jus seem to b ''enjoying''. hahax. hm. took da traiin towards marinabay n all da way back to sembawang. feeluing full. cant reallie sleep. shaun was nice to pei mie sms til i reach hme n fell asleep. *thankuytex* minghui helped my brought my ndp bagg hme too. *thankuytex* hahax. took a bath n snorezzz i went to.. ^^ gonna create a new maple charac named rhapsodygal. heex. =)

=) / (=

2006-08-09T11:46:00.000+08:00

*winks* jus cut haiir. hahax. um. nt much diff i guess. quite okiie wid it xcept da fringe biit qiguaii lehx. hahax. anw. da haiirdresser veh nice. slowlie cut bit by bit. heex. ^^ sho xcited. ltr jiu goin fer ndp les!! first thiing i do when i reach hme after haiircut was to BLOG ><. heex. hm. meetiing them at round two. but mummie cooking lunch. yeahhs. ohya. ltr gonna buy hairband. dadadax. hm. shld go aries buy or wat. black ones or coloured ones? hahax. siianx. ltr then see lo. hm. okieokie. gonna check out maple cash shop niow. buhbye.

feeliing sho much betta now.

2006-08-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

heex. had my nap jus now. slept fer bout 2hrs man. had panadols n i feel alrite now!! hahax. anw. i jus lurv my keyboard. ^^ it reallie rawkx man. wheeex~ i lyk its color--pearlwhite sho freakiing nice. yeahhs. anw. jason tml nt goin les. bcome joseph go. lolx. anw. rachel alsho goin but we diff sector!! *sobsobs* hahax. hm. i alsho dunoo how to go sia. justina n minghui go buy da singapore t todae. lolx. joseph weariing red polo t. evryone gonna b sho RED lo. wth. im gonna wear a white shirt wid pink shorts. hahax. dunch feel lyk weariing skirt or pants. cos i bet it will b damn hot. hahax. okie. chatting awae now. hahax. earlie nitex.

bones are seriiouslie breakkiing.

2006-08-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

arghhhhx. my entire bodie ish achiing lyk hell. morning jiu felt damn pek cek les. cos last nite called vanessa n oishan but both nobodie ans. glorie goin fer hme econs. raaaahx. but i meet june up at seven n wore skoo u to skoo. go to skoo les. saw bernice. siti. shaun(phs des). vanessa. da three guys whom i dunoo their names. =X. half wae thru da parade. it drizzled!! but yet continued w/o anie pause or wat eva shyt. then after nt long. da drizzliing stop. lolx. da prayers were answered!! hahax. sho cool man. by then i was haviing bodyaches n feeling jus nt rite. felt sort of siickiish? hahax. guess sho. after tat went to dhoby ghaut. had macdonalds des pancakes. heex. it rawkx man. wheeex. after tat rachel met up wid jianfan n we went off to pc bunk. speakking of pc bunk. my blood ish starting to boil. raaaahx. *roars* we go there plae at 12. then found out tat maple gt patch. waited til 12.30. then guess wat? we dl da patch mahx. keep cant. then gt corrupted. more worse was tat my com hang n was spoiled in da end. changed to another com. da com was far better n da patch was nt corrupted at all!! wheeex. i was sho happie when da patch was done. but when i click on PLAY. maple stil cant plae. wthwthwth. then go check health status. muahahahax. its under maintainance. wtf lahx. the pc bunk ppl noe des lo. they nv tell us. zzz. let us waste our money there. one hr four bucks lehx. wtfwtfwtf. aaahhhhx. after one hr les stil cant plae then mie n june pekcek les jiu went off. we initiallie decided to go compasspoint. but halfwae thru da traiinride. we boarded off at potongpasir n took back to dhobyghuat n board starightaway to marinabay n back to sembawang. LOLX lo. tried to sleep alittle on da traiin. but was nt reallie successful. hahax. anw. reach sembawang les jiu pei june go mac to buy mcflurrie. then mie go seveneleven to buy cupnoodles. hahax. its been long since i had cupnoodles man. heex. saw jinshi.anadee.alistair.stephanie. they were at seveneleven too. hahax. such a coincidence =). hahax. hm. after tat went to da side there eat. da hot soup run down my throat n filled my empty stomach. hahax. then went wid june to buy ppc cards. she bought two ten dollars one. walao. sho freakiing riich horx. hahax. anw. she gt necki n wraith ones. hahax. sho cute lo. tml ish june's maple weddiing!! wheeex~~ happiie marriiage worx. heex. ^^. jus had a warm bath n waiiting fer my hair to gt dried. gonna go sleep les. im freakiing tired. yawns~ takkaiire.

p.s. tml stil gt ndp!! i cant fall siick des. =(

insaneliie madd.

2006-08-07T21:38:00.000+08:00

jus came backk nt long ago frm tuition. hahax. sho hot man. todae's tuition was cool. laughed n laughed~ heex. hm. tml gonna go fer eldds!! raaaahx. dunch feel lyk goin. pon todae des rehearsal alsho. blehx. anw. tml nid to go. if not stand at ccaless there alsho wil gt caught by mrwhite des!! *sobsobs* i dunch wanna go!! but yet. i cant pon alsho. wthwtwth. begs mummy to let mie pon. tml after tat still goin pc bunk wid june. meeting shaun n jasper. hahax. anw. wat about rachel they all? bet they dunch wanna go pc bunk wid us bahx. hahax. haiix. hope tml el ppl gt ppl wear skoo skirt as miie. i dunch wanna wear jeans! cos i look horrible in it. heex. hm. dunch care. da most i xtra wear skoo skirt nohx. blehx. wateva lahx. smsing shaun. zzz. he ask mie rmb briing ten dollar fer lan. OBVIOUSLIE. if nt he pay uh. hahahax. okieokie. feeling bit tired. restless. lost. ahhhhx. saw him outside my class todae. during break time. lolx. being sort of ''bullied'' by frens? lolxlolxlolx. hahax. hm. oh man. im sho freakking pmsed now. cos keep recieving smses n lazie to reply. raaaahx. okie. gtg les. buhbye n gudnites. lurvs fereva*

new keyboard.

2006-08-06T16:21:00.000+08:00

heex. gotta new keyboard. tis one ish logitech des. jus now go sunplaza wid my daddie n gt tat keyboard. hurrays. cos my old one des spacebar spoil les. tats y got a new one. but tis one da hme.delete. insert. pgup n pgdwn all diff locations. sho jus now play maple veh veh buxiguan. n pots arrangemt alsho nid change. n guess wat. jus nw i fiting pepes. n i died. cos press wrong button fer white pots!! wthwthwth. % actuallie 10 des. now back to zero. ytd jus lvled up. lvl 38 les!! yippess. heex. hm. now trying out my new keyboard. typing made faster but mapling made harder. raaaahx. nths perfect. hahax. hm. daddie go fetch my sista hme frm her tuition at woodlands. hahax. hm. sometimes bit lazie to tariin maple alsho. jus feel lyk slackiing in evryth. heex. piig~~ hm. chatting wid clement now. guess bout a week or sho nv chat wid him les bahx. hahax. hm. anw. feel lyk goin out ltr. *roars* but veh tired. hahax. jus feel lyk sleeping. zzz. hm. okie. blog agaiin tonite or tml bahx. p.s. tml last paper-lit!! wheeeex. gotta save up 60 bucks*

wheeex.

2006-08-04T16:20:00.000+08:00

its bout one week since i last blogged. hahax. bz wid exams. raaaahhhx. hope i can pass all subjts but guess its rather hard. hahax. wateva. left wid one more paper to go. n tats lit. hahax. tis time no nid study fer lit. cos its gonna b unseen text. yippees. heex. wahahahax. dadadax. lynn siewhui june rachel n mie planning to get da same carrier bagg. hahax. sho cool i wish its gonna b lime green. im sho into green nowadays. green seems to look sho nice. heex. sudden likiing of GREEN!! muahahax. mayb gonna plae maple awhiile. backk at nite tiime. hahax.

anxious`anxiety`

2006-07-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

hahax. todae study fer jus a few hrs fer my geog. played maple alittle. last evening levelled up. now 37. hahax. anw. todae didnt plae at all. hahax. gud gal horx. heex. hm. jus nw went to sembawang shopping centre da taiguoxiaochi there agaiin fer dinner. daddie n mummie went to giant after tat. while my sista n i went to funland. hahax. hm. there des arcade games nt nice. veh few alsho. ended up feel lyk grabbing those stuff toys. one dollar per plae nia. tried grabbing a biig n cute squirrel. da grabber grabbed it!! wheeex. i was sho happie. but on da way to tat drophole. da grabber suddenlie vibrated n it dropped. my heart fell too. arghhh. sho close lo. then go another machiine. da toys smaller in size. da toys in tat machine nt cute ones. but gt one quite attracted mie. it looks lyk eeyore. sho damn freakiing cute. i tried to grab it. n i reallie got it!!! gt a few ladies then try grabbing da same toy as mine. but they tried twice stil failed. then i wanna grab another one fer my sista. n i got it agaiin. they were saying: waa. she gt two liaox. lolx. todae sho shuang. first time grab dao stuff toys in arcade. heex. anw. tml ish da starting of common test. arghhhx. geog n eng. hahax. nt confident at all man!! die les lahx. raaaaahx. okieokie. gonna turn in earlie. hahax. gudnitex.

p.s. fergt him. fergt him not.

p.p.s. im ms soyamiilk!!

backk to da olden daes?

2006-07-26T20:24:00.000+08:00

wheeeeex. todae gt da ndp rehearsal. da sun was lyk sho damn scorchiing hot!! hahax. but then. nice view of him. heex. i will b glad jus b able to look at him tis way. hahax. its nice. heex. dadadadax. my dae ish great. hahax. *winks* glad tat at least he ish successful in his cca. hm. unlike mie. hahax. but at least i did go fer eldds todae nohs. hahax. gud gal horx. blehx. oohh yaa. tml gonna meet up jason n yvonne to buy bubble tea. yeahhx. cos first lesson ish chi. wheex. can bring over to hav my driinks. hahax. hmhmhm. todae's perfect~~ anw. tis few daes starting to pms. hahax. alittle onlie. brought tidbits to skoo. glry brought a pack of sth which ish lyk ruffles but some other brand. its nice. yummie. theres sunflower seeds. raspberry tarts. ruffles. etcetc. hahax. all contributed by shaun. steph. mitchelle. glory n mie. =)) heex. its fattening man. hahax. wateva. tats life. hahax. guess my sms wun b bursting tis mth. nt msgin shaun tat much les. lolx. he jus gotta new blog. hahax. anw. jus to remind u. he ish nt my stead. he ish my maple dear. hahahax. sianx. doin zuoye til halfway. now slackiing. hahax. okieokie. chit chattering tiime. buh byex. gudnitex. huggiex. p.s.s. i'll alwaex lurv u.

~roars~

2006-07-25T20:26:00.000+08:00

arghh. jus finished plaeing minesweeper flags wid glory. wth. i lost. hahax. hm. plae again nahx. hahahax. hm. todae morning was veh veh hot lo. saw yvonne n joseph at da mrt station. shijia too. all jus lyk mie. swetaing profuselie? hahax. yeahs. all thx to june lahx. cos mie cant take da train wid yvonne n joseph to gt aircon earlier. -.-''' hahahahax. my chem test onlie gt 5/20. gud sia. heex. sho proud of tat. todae mrs soh ordered pizza fer our performance on racial harmony dae. wheeeex. but da one i ate was dunoo wat ham or wat des lahx. no more hawaiian. *weeps* some its nt pizza hut des. sho nt tat nice. but anw. stil thx to mrs soh. lolx. hm. after tat stil had eng remedial. ew. stil doin those grammer stuff. n weiliang scored da highest again. wth. hahax. hm. i guess tml wil b tiring. hav ndp parade rehearsal. sianx. do march pass. i rather faint off man. muahahax. hm. jus nw plaed maple awhile. perecntage onlie 25. hahax. fancy killing wild boars at lvl 36. nice to kill. easie. one shot die. woooo. attack can add up to over a thousand. wheeeex. gt boogies even better. two shot dead. shiiok. hahax. lurvs neckis. boogies. fieries. boars. curse eyes. all mushrooms. hahax. evryth seems sho nice now. blehx. todae when in train hme. when train door closes at yishun. guess wat. joseph told mie he saw him. zzz. at da escalator. hm. why. why. why. why tell mie bout him. lolx. im jus mad. wateva. hm. lazie to do my zuo wen. owe teacher 3 zuowens. im slacking lyk hell. anw. i nid go print out da common test timetable. nid start studie les lahx. *ROARS* im freakiing tired. lazie. to do anyth. arghh. bought tidbits fer tml les. heex. okieokie. gotta go do my stuff les. kekex. earlie nites. huggies.

its 23rd agaiin.

2006-07-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

hm. same date agaiin. time flies. hahax. went to east coast park todae. borrowed a bike frm my uncle hu lives at pasir ris. his bike no ''wind'' then nid pong lo. hahahax. at first ride his bike n veh used. but then. i find out tat his bike totallie RAWKX. wheeeeex. damn nice lo. heex. reallie enjoyed myself. heex. hm. after tat dae mie n him broke up. tis ish da first 23 tat i enjoy myself sho much. hahax. *winks* after tat. lay on da mat somewhre near da waters. under coconut tree. close my eyes. veh windie. veh coolingg. calming too. hahax. dunch feel lyk opening my eyes once ive closed them. its a nice feeliing. yeahhs. then at round 6 plus. went changi village fer dinner. had western food. actuallie wanted to order cheesy stuffed-meat des. but ish either beef or pork. sianxx. dunch feel lyk eating beef nor pork todae. sho ordered seafood platter. gt grilled fish. fried sotong. fried prawns. coleslaw. fries. toastbread. n three mini tomatoes. heex. cute lo. da fish des sauce ish sweet n sour des. tasted quite nice. but da fish doesnt seem tat fresh. da meat nt one slice one slice. veh easilie jiu small small pieces les. hahax. anw. was veh veh full. cos stil ate a fried wanton. zhuikuay. veh piigg lo. hahahahax. blehx. jus reach hme nt long ago. jus had my bath. feeling sleepie. tml stil gt skoo. sianxx. okie. gudnitex. huggies.

p.s. i will nv fergt u.

hott dae!! =.=

2006-07-21T16:18:00.000+08:00

hm. todae our class 3 HUMILTY performed~~ wheeeex. we hav friendship dance. n guess wat. we won da first prize!! adding on to tat. we alsho gt da most creative award. lolx. total 100 dollars vouchers man. ~woooo~ wheewheex. keep sweating lyk hell todae lahx. wat a hot n stuffie weather. jus took a damn shiok cold bath. hahax. xtreme refreshiing. heex. jus now bo liaox. go make coffee put into freezer. can hav it ltr. hahax. oh ya. feel lyk cycliing. quite long nv cycle les lehx. hm. i wan cycle til da sembawang beach there!! hahax. dunoo ltr minghui wan go cycle not. he jus nw say weather too hot ltr then sae. wth lahx. hot say hot. rain say rain. zzz. -.-''' dadadadax. tml no skoo agaiin. tis week ish sho gud man. mon go skoo. tues no go. wed go. thurs no go. fri go. lolx. patterns ehhs? hahax. keep feelingg thirstie. argh. saw him quite a no. of times todae. i tink. if nv rmb wronglie. saw him jus when i goin to recess. n when my class waiting to perform at da ground lvl tat time. hahax. hm. but too badd. zhi you kan de fen. *sadds* feel lyk playing maple now. hahax. anw. i shall go find those screenshots tat i took at aqua rd tat dae les. buh bye. *ilu*

new songg.

2006-07-19T19:55:00.000+08:00

hm. now da song ish changed to zhidunishuo. tis songg ish meaningful. yeahs. hm. sorrie. previous post des chi words dunoo y cant b seen. *sobssobs* hm. todae actuallie gt add maths test des. but postpone. cos onlie 16 ppl handed up da graph hw!! woooo. i was one of them hu DIDNT hand in. hahax. blehx. then she say those hu nv pass up go outside do now. then i ask her if can pass now anot. cos i finish doin les. guess wat ms tang said. she said ''im nt interested''. sho diaox lo. zzz. -.-''' funnie lehx she. nt interested stil ask us to do hw. lolx. anw. jus sit outside da class wid rachel. june. cherlyn. joey. sheralin. zhengjie. weiliang n jin shi i tink. hahax. then when her lesson over. i jus pack up my stuff there tokingg wid rachel. she come out say '' pearlyn. u finish ur work les isit? heard u tokingg with rachel'' wth lo. her lesson over les wat. NO HUMAN RIGHTS!!! tok alsho cannt. wateva nahx. hm. todae went fer recess wid yvonne. met him at da staircase there. bit xia dao. suddenlie he dunoo come frm whre jus appear. lolx. hm. wats wrongg wid mie man. he alsho human wat. y do i lurv him. wats sho special bout him. HUH. im sho madd lo. madlie lurvv-siick. hahax. after skoo. raes go meet pH. yvonne gt gb. then go hme wid june. bought taiwan oyster mee sua. one tea egg. n a sharksfin soup( tis one share wid june) hahax. went to da voideck there eat. da mee sua nt veh nice lehx. nt as i xpected nahx. hm. mie n june todae FIRST time eat oyster mee sua. lolx. onlie gt ONE pathetic oyster lahx. wthwthwth. hm. da tea egg nt brown enuff. bit too whitish les. stil ask tat ladie take below ones. but stil lyk tat. muahahax. hm. after tat walk to my hse thre des minimart buy drinks. then chat alittle while more n parted. hm. reach hme took a bath n chatted wid shaun. bit tired. bit sleepie. but stil. i came online. hahax. FRIENDSHIP DANCE on fri!! wheeeex. =) okieokie. endiing rite here les. nitex. huggies. *ilu*

i wanna sleep~

2006-07-18T11:13:00.000+08:00

hm. woke up by pongpong des sms tis morniing. hahax. at round 8 plus. sho sleepie lo. hm. da those It day des mlg stuff. sianx des lahx. sho manie hw. cant possiblie finish by tml des lo. DREAM ON MAN. hm. stil owe 3 zuowens. aiya. lazie do. wenjing goin phuayhua des hse ltr to do hw ltr. dunch feel lyk joining. cos ltr gonna plae maple!! wheeex. hm. ''往往女生善变的是脸,而男生善变的却是心.''(frm 天堂来信). tis phrase somehow caught my attention. hm. guys r freakks. muahahax. by stil y do gals fall in love wid a guy yet? damn gals. hahax. n im one of those fools lo. hm. 常常都在欺骗自己,说不再想他,要忘了他,可是满脑子装的却是他. haiix. love ish such a complicated stuff. wateva. im tired. exhausted. feel lyk sleepiing now. hahax. okieokie. gonna plae maple les. huggies.

humiid weather =.=

2006-07-17T21:55:00.000+08:00

hm. todae des weather. was lyk. horrible. incorrigible. hahahax. hm. woke up tis morniing. cant sms shaun les. cos he gt his ncc camp at hq n NO HANDFONES. lolx. wateva lo. btw. he ish my maple dear. hahax. hm. maple lvl 35 les~~~ yippees. hm. june des acc gt hacked. evryth gone. left wid a silver sb and 400 mesos. cool. hahahax. *eVilLauGhtErs* she stil tuck at lvl 38. hope i could catch up man. tml gonna pia. hahax. hm. todae gt chi listening. its GCE o lvl ones. but nt as hard as i xpected. hm. yinxiu gt rashes. come skoo n go bac again. lolx. but stil came fer da listening. hahax. hm. meet june fer tuition earlie todae cos she wans go aries buy stuff. she sho late lo. at 6.o5 she called mie say she fergt. wth. she plae maple til fergt evryth les. hahax. hm. then wait fer her sho long. chatted wid clement on da fone. bit sianx alsho. hahax. hung up on him. lolx. TWICE in total. cos jus nw after tuition. tok halfway. i hung on him too. =X. hahahax. okieokie. i mus say tat im reallie horrible at tis. hahax. but quite fun eh? heex. hm. sianxx. treat him lyk broo lyk tat. he sho funnie ones lo. hahax. hm. tml no one can pei mie train maple. *sobssobs* gotta train myself. hm. clement goin over madd fer (XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX). why ppl des world all revolviing around da word LOVE? includingg mie actuallie. heex. hm. jus nw saw his nick. doesnt seem okie at all. wonders how ish he. he sho fast offline les. dunoo wat happen to him. hahax. but news bout him. easie to find. ask ncc ppl jiu enuff les. no nid ask. ppl alsho come tell mie. lolx. do i seem as if i wanna noe all bout him?!? hahax. okieokie. do wanna noe some. hahax. listeningg to jian dan ai now. nice song. suddenlie lyk SUPERWOMAN. wooo. its nice too. heex. oops. i gtg go sleep. anw. tsunami came agaiin todae!! idonesia!! god bless. amen.

gudd morniing!!

2006-07-15T12:01:00.000+08:00

oops. i jus woke up nt longg ago. hahahax. okieokie. mr sim say horx. if one sleep too much. veh poisonsous ones. cos bodie inside lots of carbon dioxide~~ hahax. joke man. heex. mayb true. but seems ridiculous. hm. feelingg veh bored now. listeningg to tis year des ndp songg. chi version des nicer lehx. heex. buh bye. ltr gonna plae maple les. heex. 97% les.wooo.

!GCE O LVL CHI ORAL!

2006-07-12T20:18:00.000+08:00

wthwthwth. todae hav GCE O LVL CHI ORAL EXAMINATION!!! omggomggomgg. ahhh. sho scarie lo. last nite alsho nv prepare anyth. cos dunoo how to prepare =X. hm. todae left my hse quite earlie in da morningg. called jason if he stil wanna meet up to buy bubble tea. but guess wat? he jus woke up. lOlx. hahax. hm. went to seven eleven to buy a pack of CHACHOs fer da ''feast''. hahax. da idea came from mitchelle. hahax. but ended up he himself nv bringg any food. lOlx. glorie bought wasabi snack. chocolates. peanutbutter munchie. hm. quite nice. hahax. zhengjie bought a BIG pack of LAYS SOURCREAM!!! woooo. =P. sean bought chipsmore. steph bought YUPI BURGER. hahahax. its had been long since i ate tat. lOlx. hm. tink tml morningg goin meet june up at da bubble tea there n buy it to skoo. =). hahax. nice idea eh? hm. sianx lahx. todae tat oral sho kongbu des. hm. da news topic was tat whether u agree if children shld take their parents to court. lOlx. nt hard. nt easie. dunoo wat shyt. hahax. one of da teacher was munchingg awae on oreos. wth!!! hahax. yx told mie tat da examiner was goin to take her student pass frm her. but she tot da examiner wanna shake hand. then she shook her hand!!! muahahahax. damn funnie lo. hahax. hm. after tat went sun plaza to buy graph paper fer add maths and bought some food. tea egg and chicken wing. hahax. saw yvonne n germaine. hm. yvonne seems bit guaiguai nowadays. hm. wonder if she starts to dislike mie. my instinct tells mie sho. hm. i dunoo. =X. hm. tat dae napfa test do situps. gt and A* heex. *smiles* do 35 situps. woooo. now gt stomch cramp. cos of tat. jus nw bo liao go do 20 situps. hahax. hm. okieokie. i gonna find some other stuff to do les. yeahs. buh bye. huggies.

passingg fridae.

2006-07-07T20:23:00.000+08:00

hm. its friidae again. o7o72oo6-stead wid raes~~ wheeees. hahax. lOlx. plae plae ones nahx. im nt a lesbian horx? muahahax. im perfectlie norm. =) todae morning first lesson jiu shi geog. sianx nahx. ish mr ng or dunoo wat surname des nahx. actuallie he bit fierce. abit onlie. but then horx. todae tat ms lim came in. dunoo do wat. lOlx. mie n raes tokingg. we tok once she jiu move closer to us. as if she wanna listen wat we toking about lyk tat. hahahax. raes todae des contacts gt prob. eyes cant see properlie. lOlx. pei her go toilet then hlp her put eyedrop. hahax. seeing da way she take out contacts. veh kongbu lehx. i was tinking in my mind: wat if she pull her eyeball n not her contacts? tat will b gross. muahahax. okie. but ltr. she reallie poke dao her eyes. lOlx!!! hm. after tat gt chem lesson. amelia finallie changed her clothingg!! hahax. tat dae she nv changed then gt mocked by steph n minghui. hahahax. my sitting in class was reallie superb. sit wid minghui. glorie. sean. angelyn. wenya. steph. all veh nice. entertainingg. heex. minghui ish someone i cann tok to. glorie ish someone hu i can trust. sean ish ah zek. ahahax. he saes im auntie!! wat da hell lo. =X. angelyn ish funnie. esp duringg ms tang lesson. *laughs* wenya ish frenlie although we tok nt tat often. heex. steph ish totallie humourous!! hm. todae gt da 5th student council investiture. da theme ish love. bit awkard. lOlx. now then noe he bcome ex.co liaox. congrats bahx. *smiles* hm. pastor shrima read yinxiu des name as yin xue!! lOlx. damn funnie lo. hahahax. okie. sean bcome da PRESIDENT!! omgg rites? he in class sho da nt serious ones. sometimes alsho nv do hw ones. lyk tat alsho cann. hahax. but he ish quite nice lahx. hahax. AH ZEK. lOlx. cherlyn des hair was totallie gorgeous. wonders how she make it. hahax. she ish under senior councils liaox. lOlx. hm. why do i stil lurv him. why. haiix. im sho tangled. get mie out of all tis man!! anw. i found out tat my temper n attitude changed alittle les. nt tat bad aniemore. yeahhs. ytd chatting wid clement. clement mentioned tat terr ish doin well. hm. doin well jiu hao bahx. guess he hav alreadie moved on. n im stil here. stucked. haiix. how do u even move on when u stil hav feelings fer him? teach mie plss. i wanna live w.o guys. learn to live w.o lurv.

omgg!! i neglected tis.

2006-07-06T19:01:00.003+08:00

oops. jus changed my blogskin. hahax. isit nice? hahax. neglected tis blog fer quite a week or sho les bahx. hmms. now gt new music. but mus click on da play button ones. dunch hav autoplayy. argh. hahax. hm. now skoo reopen. evrydae jiu will kandao him. i alsho dunoo. tryingg to b alrite. pretendingg to b happie. wild. hm. im reallie tired man. anw. i jus quited da uptrend tuition thinggie. now jus joined yvonne n june des tuition grp. on evry mon. hahax. met my pri skoo fren. jim there. hahax. da teacher quite nice. nt shiong des. heex. hm. but he teach bit too fast lehx. cant afford to tok des. if not jiu miss out liaox. hahax. okieokie. mayb i need time to catch up or sth. suddenlie da word WORLD CUP comes to my mind. i lurv italy. hopes she wins!! wheeeeex. hm. bought a new notebk. a powerpuff gal ones. hahax. sho cute nohx. =P i lurv it. im nt gonna isolate it lyk my previous notebks. hahax. hm. men are decievers. u dunch noe when to believe them. when they are speakingg from their hearts. evrytime i see him. my mind will b in a swirl. haiix. i hate myself. arghh. why do i lurv him. why. haiix. todae glorie told mie her views. sayingg tat mie n him dunch look compatible. when we tgtr dunch hav tat type of ganjue. lOlx. perhaps shes right. when we stand tgr. ppl dunch even feel tat we r compatible. dunch even feel tat we are a couple. perhaps tat no wonder why we didnt last. wateva. im reallie exhausted. i need to breathe man. okieokie. im gonna do some other stuff now les. buh bye. huggies.

numbed.

2006-06-27T21:06:00.000+08:00

skoo finallie reopened. actuallie. tis time des june hols seems short nahx. haiix. go skoo jiu will see dao him. im lyk in a turmoil?! ahh. gt mie out of tis freakingg shyt. i HATE it. i reallie hate to say tis. but somehow. i hope his entire class could jus transfer skoo or sth. perhaps they shld jus vanish into thin air. i noe its cruel to say tis. but i reallie find it hard facingg him. its sho freakish. why. why isnt it jus a dreamm or sth? haiix. i reallie find it tiring. actingg to b madlie happie. tryingg to seem as if im OK. hm. life sucks. thoroughlie. wateva. stopp tokingg bout tis thinggie les. hmms. todae ms tang praised mie. omgg. i sho shocked. it had been long since i had been praised. heex. sianx. todae glory was absent. she was sickk. haiix. n im left sitting all alone. sho lonelie. after skoo went sembawang shopping centre wid june n joseph. hahax. had pizza hut. ate curry zazzle baked rice. it was quite nice. da rice was funnie. it seems uncooked. but tasted crunchie. hahax. okieokie. update nxt time uh? hahax. buh bye.

\ (^ ^) / -.-''' !@#$%^&*

2006-06-19T14:13:00.000+08:00

dots dots. dunoo wat to put fer title. stunned there fer secs. hahax. old les. brain malfunction. hm. chatting wid clement. hahax. last nite luckilie yvonne called mie. she reminded mie tat todae gt maths remedial!! if not i will still b in da dark. actuallie ms tang gt say todae hav. its jus tat im blurr. hahax. hm. woke up at 7.45 tis morning. mummie stil sleepingg. cos she didnt noe mie todae goin skoo. but when i was bathingg. she woke up n make breakfast fer mie. nice mummie. thankuytex. heex. hm. then i went off to skoo lo. jason sms mie. he ask mie bout add math remedial stuff. hahax. then meet yvonne at mrt station. she ask mie hlp her pass up her geog file. lOlx. then saw minghui and joseph and justina. went to skoo tghtr. hahax. ehhs. goin to hav my lunch les. buh bye.

love suckx.

2006-06-14T11:34:00.000+08:00

hm. seems lyk its goin to rain again. sianx. actuallie intended to ltr ask minghui go ride bicycle wid mie ltr des. but ltr if no rain then say bahx. hm. ytd went to sci centre wid pompom. minghui. i was alittle late then on my way to mrt station. saw minghui jus came out of his hse. walking out of his blk. lOlx. gt ppl alsho late. hahax. he veh lame lo. sms mie saying : i saw u. u wearing blue shirt rite? lOlx. sho diaox. -.-''' hahax. but then. i reach da mrt station first lehx. blehx. hahax. i stil go toilet nehx. hahax. met up wid yvonne on da platform. shijia was late. then pompom was earlie.i guess. hahax. then tgtr board train go jurongg east. wheeex. at jurongg. yvonne n shijia left to imm. then mie. minghui and pompom jiu walk to sci centre. hm. bought a package thinggie. includes admission to sci centre. admission to da dinosaurs! and ticket to da t-rex movie. da t-rex movie suckx. i will suggest tat they change da main role (da gal). she sho xuhuan horx? hahax. she sho old stil act innocent. veh buda lehx. hahax. da storieline alsho veh diaox lo. somemore 40 mins nia. althouigh onlie 40min. gt a young boi behind keep kickingg my chair. but i didnt lose my cool. i jus look behind. he ish a young boi after all. hm. ltr on jiu go da annexe hall see da dinosaurs! hahax. took quite a few pics. sue was reallie gigantic!! stan was quite large too. hahax. there stil gt a mini-theatre. actuallie ish onlie a placed cornered. then gt tv there showing da shows. screening walking wid dinosaurs following by walking wid beasts. we sit there quite long til both shows ended. lOlx. after tat round 3 plus then we go mac hav lunch. then go eco-garden walk walk lo. hahax. after tat take cab. lOlx. at first ish say shuang shuang tat wan take cab onlie des. but minghui siaox. reallie go flag cab. hahax. pompom n i tot if he reallie hire dao cab jiu board lo. but he heng heng. reallie flag dao. lOlx. then we jiu take cab dao yishun. blk 200 ++ there. cos minghui wan buy pc game. diaox. hahax. watever. ltr stil walk quite a distance to a bustop which gt bus no.169 des. but then lehx. when we board. da bus was goin towards sembwang beach. lOlx. then we faster gt down da bus. minghui des action veh slow lehx. bus door close les. mie gt down les. he stil in bus. then his face showed alittle panick. hahax. but then. da bus driver open da door again fer him. hahax. can see tat minghui alsho bit paiseh. lOlx. then stil pei him go buy pumpkin and lettuce. cos his mummie wan him buy des. hahax. now chatting wid clement. love reallie suckx. why cant love jus b painless and everlastingg. cos man are suckerx. they wun love someone forever. guys purelie suckx. totallie. gals are mostlie da ones hu suffer. hu clingg on sho much. watever. sho i guess if onedae if u find a guy hu ish chiqing but nt lanqing. affectionate but nt lecherous. grab him!! hahax. lOlx. rubbish theorie uh? dunoo lehx. but. people ish wil change des. haiix. jus follow ur heart and soul. hahax. okieokie. gt to put a full stop les. too long liaox les lahx. hahax. buh bye. huggies. p.s. prayingg tat todae wun rain. *oops. da sky seems to b brighter les* =P

*o9o6o6^^

2006-06-12T20:52:00.000+08:00

heex. tis evening recieved a sms from toby gor. he wished mie happie BELATED bdae. lOlx. nvm. its da heart tat counts. *smiles* cos gor gt camp. jus gt to noe. =X hm. had quite a nice bdae. thankuytex to 12 ppl fer a sweet 15 bdae tat i had. although simple. yet nice to mie. =D joseph.minghui.lynn.siewhui.yvonne.limei.shijia.eileen.june and of cos my sista.daddie.mummie. heex. meet up minghui. joseph and june at sembawang mrt station. as usual. middle platform. hahax. hm. joseph ahh. late. hahax. miracle. june nv chidao. hahax. lOlx. suddenlie saw yvonne. limei. shijia and eileen walkingg towards us. hahax. Gb over liaox. hahax. then they join us go causeway pt. joseph arrived bout 10 min ltr then we jiu board da train. we had seoul garden. hahax. 11.30 eat til 3 plus. lOlx. SHARKS. i mean veh sharks. eat sho long. hahax. hm. limei left halfwae. *sobs* hm. stil gt one auntie teach minghui. lynn and siewhui how to cook da egg. lOlx. da auntie cook des egg damn nice lehx. hahax. tried makingg a dessert. eww. it sucks. no sweet enuff ones. put it aside. no eat it les. hahax. joseph des looks disgusting. cos he mix it wid yam ice cream. he stirr it in da dessert. no one dares to taste it. hahax. but im da kind soul hu tried first. hahax. jkjk. hm. it was NICE. quite i mean. hahax. yvonne veh lihai lehx. make chicken chop nice. fried mee alsho nice. dessert alsho nice. lOlx. can b chef liaox. heex. xiaochushi. hahax. hm. eat n play. play n eat. hahax. intended to catch a movie des. da nun. but timeslot no suitable xcept da yishun ones. but 5.05. mie cannt. nid go hme celebrate wid familie. ended up everieone go june hse there des voideck there play monopoly. hahax. nice nice. *grins* played halfwae mie jiu left les. daddie sms mie wans mie go hme celebrate. lOlx. guess wat. when i went hme. my mummie preparingg steamboat!! hahax. seoul garden alsho steamboat. hme alsho! heex. ~DOUBLE-STEAMBOAT DAE~ hahax. nice. yummies. cut my cake. n of cos. had my wish. hm. finallie. after 2 yrs. my wish finallie changed. hahax. first time i didnt wish fer a nice relationship aniemore. i wished fer my studies. hahax. gtg watch da xingjingerrenzhu les. i lurv tis type of shows. buh bye. p.s. trying to make da best out of da worst. =P

quite longg nv come post les.

2006-06-05T21:01:00.000+08:00

hmms. my bdae comingg soon les. heex. 4 more daes onlie =)) hm. sianx lahx. dunoo how to celebrate. but gotta brief plann les. hahax. morning play maple wid my maple dear then late morningg go out wid frens. go watch THE OMEN!! hahax. looking forward to tat movie. heex. da place goin horx. mus depend on da movie slot lo. i hope da venue will b PS~~ hahax. veh longg nv go les u noe. hm. my legs sho suan now. *lemonjuice* hahax. lOlx. jus nw go cycle quite alot sia. funn. hahax. we go in da bottle tree village there buy drinks. there gt seawind. veh shufu. heex. lurv it. hm. todae frm 9 til 11 plus gt add maths remedial. lOlx. ms tang again say mie blurr. *-.-'''* hm. she stil plan to hold another lesson on tis coming fri!!! its definitelie a noonoo. hahax. my bdae lehx. then limei jiu tell here she cant. then ms tang jiu ask her find out da work we do n do herself at hme. then later jason alsho cannt. ms tang said da same thingg to him. lOlx. mie tink fer bout half an hr fer a reason to not go on fri. then mie told her tat i gt doctor appointmt. hahax. told her its 11 plus in da afternoon. she stil say tats nt afternoon ish called late morningg. LOLx. hm. then she stil say: sho u trying to say tat fri ish nt a gud dae lahx? hahax. of cos not. fri ish gonna b da best dae. blehx. anw. at last she changed it to nxt mon. 9am again. hahax. hm. although tis few daes or rather weeks keep smsing wid my maple dear. but. i stil miss him. haix. why. fergt him. oh man. keep tinking of some memories. nice ones. hahax. hm. but those r memories afterall. it can nv b back i guess. hm. learn to live independentlie bahx. heex. *smiles* take it as a training? hahax. a test fer myself. okie. guess i goin chat alittle more wid toby n him jiu go orh orh les. hahax. sleep earlie. nitex. huggies.

its been daes since i eva update..

2006-05-29T20:12:00.000+08:00

hm. recentlie. knew a boi frm maple. sec one onlie. lOlx. youngg. y nowadays noe des guys all sec ones?? hahax. nvm. sec ones r more innocent. then can b frens =)) hm. da guy ish shaun. dots dots. jus saw his pic. he indeed look lyk a sec one. hahax. tis few daes keep smsingg him. mus stop les. ltr bill burst. but dunch wu hui. mie dunch lyk him des. fren fren nia. hahax. mie wun lyk younger than mie des bois des lo. diff tinkings. hahax. hm. even same age des alsho diff tinking les. geng bu yong shuo shi diff age des. hahax. hm. *smiles* sianx. how to stop smsingg? ehhx. jus dunch replyy. CONTROL. hahax. i can do it des. ~jiayou~ maple lvl 28 les. hahax. but june sho fast. 24 les. eww. mus buck upp. hm. todae go back skoo fer hcl lesson. frm 9-12. da form rite mus wear skoo uniform or will b sent hme. mie dunoo then go wear pe attire. dumb horx? *sobsobs* but luckilie nt sent hme. *phews* mie todae in class didnt talk much. onlie had a few words wid da gal bside mie hu ish frm 3grace des. hahax. some ppl were late then nid sit behind da class. 2 classes cramp together in one classroom!! hahax. mr sim there talkingg bout some o lvl paper format n oral stuff. listeningg. paayingg attention. hahax. smsed alittle. blehx. then some ppl behind toking then mr sim jiu bu shuang lo. at 11 plus bit nia. he jiu say end class. wooo. zuai. hahax. nv c a teachr sho sat bfore. hahax. then jiu dunoo wan go hme or wat. joseph ask mie go watch x-men. sho dots. but then. he himself onlie left wid 5 bucks!! stil kip sayingg wan watch moviee. *diaox* hahax. dumb dumb joseph. jkjk. hm. after go sun plaza wid minghui n joseph lo. joseph go library. mie n minghui go food court eat. hahax. ate da yupianmeefen add milk des. but sho da eww. sho much vege. soup bit tasteless. nv finish it. totallie NOT recommended. hahax. blehx. oops. someone calling my hp noww. dunch feel lyk answeringg lehx. sianx. act afk. hahax. tot in maple uh?? hahax. sista come into room now n touch my hair. sho lOlx. hahax. yvonne hate it when i say tis 3 alphabets LOL. hahax. blehx blehx. hm. suddenlie feel lyk being anti-guys. hahax. but heng minghui nt guy. hahax. i mean minghui quite nice as a fren. hahax. 6yrs des frenship lo. hahax. todae mie told him i hav xiangtong les. ( da broken relationship ish wat im refering to) he says tats da best. heex. although i hav xiangtong les. but feelings nt gone. hm. nvm. its nt tat badd. hahax. *smiles* now my results. mus jia you jia you. heex. maple alsho mus jiayou. hahax. huggies.

sianx ahh.

2006-05-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

ahhh. cant play maple.some stupid probs. ahh. can log in. but when i choose da world. stuck there. lOlx. hahax. hm. chatting wid some ppl. veh veh sianxx. afternoon slept frm 3.30 til 6. heex. zhu zhu =P hm. keep playin daidi. heex. nice nice. sho mad bout daidi les. heex. yvonne seems lyk ''duhou''. june seems lyk ''dugui''. heex. sho badd horx. lolx. hm. munchingg on some crackeers now. hahax. yums yums. fat fat les. ahh. mus cut down. hahax. okie. tml no skoo. gonna wake up at 8 n play maple lyk hell. chiong. hahaxx. okie. gtg try tat stupid maple again les. blehx. takkaire.

lalalax.

2006-05-24T20:19:00.000+08:00

hm. playy daidi in class todae. heex. todae stil go skoo behind collect stuff fer recyclingg. hahax. hm. we go fruit stall there. da uncle sho nice. giv us alot of newspaper n cardbox. hahax. *thxthx* hm. tml jiu thurs les. hahax. sho fast. hm. tink quite alot tis few days. cos broke up fer bout 2 wks plus les. calm down les. tot hard. probablie it was some how an indirectlie gud thingg fer mie bahx. hahax. hm. im nt sending da email les. tats my decision n tats it. im having my own strong stand noww. blehx. gtg play maple les. takkaire.

pausedd.

2006-05-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

hm. mummie bought mie my bdae present todae les. an earlie one. heex. she gt mie a pair of pearl earrings!! u rawkx man. heex. thankutex. *huggies* hm. daddie ah. stil haven buyy mie yet. hahax. hm. 4 more daes to daddie to des bdae =P hahax. hm. todae went to IMM to do some shopping. afterwards go my uncle hse which ish at pasirris. then went fer dinner at seafood paradise restaurant. gt tofu. mantou. buttercrab. fish. vege. blackpepperhoneyspareribs. hm. da spare ribs was xtremelie yummie. *loves* da butter crab was special. creamy creamy des. quite nice. hahax. when we were about to finish our food. it started drizzlingg. eww. then our place ish outdoor des. no shelter. *sobs* hahax. stil gt left crab sho took away. yums. im goin to eat tat crab noww. heat it up. heex. buh bye. nites. p.s. oh ya. he tml goin overseas les. haix. wish him a safe journey~ *loves*

paisehh

2006-05-20T10:43:00.000+08:00

oops. sho long nv come blogg les. paisehhs. hm. im lookinf fer some recipes. hahax. microwaves recipes. feel lyk whipping sth up fer daddie's bdae. hahax. ehhx. but stil didnt found a recipe tat suits. haix. sobs sobs. hm. tinking alot alot tis few daes. even dreamt of him da dae be4. ew. it was a nice dream. but yet a dream which giv mie hope. ahh. wateva. dreams are nt true des. ya. hm. im reallie fickled minded. i jus cant make up my decision. wateva ppl say alwaex affects my decision. minghui says its cos my stand ish nt strongg enuff. perhaps sho. hm. how. im lyk. breakingg down soon. haix. speaking of results. i failed two subjts. chem. add maths. haix. but at least i did improve as compared to ca1. hahax. *smiles* hm. keep listening to da song tianhui by s.h.e. tis few daes. da song ish nice n makes mie tink. hahax. okie okie. my maple lvl 26 les!! jus lvled up last nite. heex. gotta chiong les. *winks* hm. okie. later stil goin out lo. sianxx. okie okie. gtg les. buh bye. takkaire.

haix.

2006-05-16T20:38:00.000+08:00

mon morning he jiu goin fer da dunoo wat trip les lo. haix. y suddenlie evryth seem to b leaving one by one? haix. i jus cant bear to let go. howw. haix. he seem stress tis few daes cos of council stuff. bit heartache. haix. hm. joey suggested mie to try reason out!! lolx. shld i? hm. y cant i jus seem to gt an ans? haix. ppl alreadie goin les lo. ahh. freakk mie. haix. drag longer. more gone case. how. haix. god ahh. hlp mie. im sho vulnerable noww.

5 more daes..

2006-05-15T20:31:00.000+08:00

hm. five more daes. i reallie ponder wat will my conclusion b. hm. aniewae. i shld jus try to live my life to da fullest. then compare. lyk tat then fair mahx. hahax. hm. do i seem okie nowadays? hm. somtimes. i reallie get numb. or perhaps it has bcome part of mie les bahx. hm. chatting wid clement. chenning n terr now. hm. y almost evryone say tat will regret after a relationship. hm. i wun regret. cos its reallie nice. hm. listening to songs now. sianxx. hm. zhiduinishuo by linjunjie veh nice. i lyk it alot. heex. i highlie recommend it =P mie plan hao my hols les. one dae mus go beach playy. one dae mus go catch a horror movie. hahax. perhaps da omen? hm. stil mus go cycle wid minghui. go contact pehching. kaven. nicholas then go play badminton. hahax. n lastlie. how mus i celebrate my bdae? go beachh? or go watch movie? hmm. tis few daes keep wanting to orh orh. tis few mornings. slp til quite late. then afternoon stil go take nap. then at nite 10 jiu orh orh les. sho ish sleep alot alot. heex. sho piggie horx? blehx. sobs sobs. tml jiu cannt les lo. gt skoo. sianxx. gt da dunoo wat course. hope it will b interesting lo. gotta b positive. hahax =)) hm. guess goin play maple or sth bahx. hahax. buh bye. huggies.

hmms.

2006-05-15T12:17:00.000+08:00

hm. chatting wid clement now. jus gt to noe him. lolx. he onlie sec one. hm. but quite a nice boi bahx. hahax. i mean nice to chat wid. ya. dunch misunderstood worx. mie no tat flirt des lo. hahax. hm. relationships reallie dunch lasts des mahx? hm. how. yx suggests mie to bu jiu. hm. shld i? clements says i shld follow my heart. my heart. my heart tells mie to. but wat if its da wrong choice? haix. it reallie nids alot of courage des u noe. im stil tinking bout tat. wat if. i pluck up da courage n try but fail? haix. it will onlie make mie feel worse. far worse than now. keep tinking bout him evrydae. sometimes. i reallie wonder. how he feels after da breakupp. better? worse? haix. nobodie noe i guess. woke up at round 9 todae. gt quite a badd dream. lying on da bed n tinking of him again. haix. nvm. guess goin play maple les. ya. buh bye =))

thankutex thankutex minghui =))

2006-05-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

minghui!!! thankutex fer ur advices.. ur advices alwaex hlp des! hahax. okie. my grand advisor?? lOlx. hm. i noe wat i shld do les. finallie. hahax. pei mie countdown til 20th may k? hahax =P. hm. tml stil gt tuition lehxx. bit sianx =(( . hahax. lazie zhu. todae gt bit stomach upset lo. sobs sobs. hm. now dling da song zhi dui ni shuo. omggg. its damn nice lo. heex. hm. goin 10 les. feeling tired goin orh orh soon. hahax. kk. nites.

sorrie sorrie

2006-05-13T10:09:00.000+08:00

paiseh. last nite didnt blogg. hahax. cos went out to hav dinner then go pray pray. ya. hm. tis few days stil tinking whether to gt over da relationship or try save it. hm. yx suggested mie to email him n save it be4 its reallie too late. hm. shld i or shld i not? stil trapped n tis question. hahax. toby said tat if mie send him da email n try to save it. at least five yrs down da road i wun regret cos i didnt try. but lynn n siewhui says tat i shldnt n shld jus let go? hm. i dunoo bahx. haix. ytd took out da bottle of hearts plus stars tat he gave mie on valentines. i pour it all out n cried. haix. why. why m i sho stubborn. hm. but im glad tat i stil hav my frens to giv mie advice n comfort mie (lynn.toby.siewhui.yinxiu.) =)) thankutex lots. hm. if others can do sth well. y not mie? hm. ahh. i've been sho contradicting. when i tink of sth. da nxt moment i will tink of sth tat goes against it. lOlx. mie sho daa.. siaox? hahax. hm. lynn suggest tat mie decide whether to send da mail anot after she talks to mie. hm. probably. mie meetingg her up tml bahx. after tuition. hope not goin out wid my parents bahx. hm. mie goin play maple les. takkaire xspeciallie tobyy. *rmb. u can do it*

i hav to accept tat.

2006-05-11T20:28:00.000+08:00

hm. tryingg hard to accept da fact tat our relationship ish alreadie over les. hm. its reallie hard fer mie. last nite cant sleep til eleven plus. sat on my bed n keep cryingg. hm. toby said tat he ish nt worth it. haix. i dunoo. but i didnt regret. hahax. now mie feeling better after my bath les. tot it thru les. heard advices from toby. lynn n him. hahax. evryone asked mie to move on. cos nobody will wait fer mie. if i dunch gt thru tis n jus stop here. i will b left behindd. hm. toby reallie hlped mie alot. hahax. thankutex my gor gor =)) hm. gor said jus take it tat i hav gone thru a period of life. hahax. tink tml or sundae meeting lynn up. hahax. she say mie now nid ppl to pei mie. n she ish goin to pei mie!! heex. i guess she ish reallie strongg. i've to b like her. hahax. mus hav determination. perserverance. hm. todae morning horx. when i look into da mirror. my eyes look damn small. cos due to crying too much last nite. my eyelids were sore. hahax. but now okie les lahx =P hm. cried alittle in da afternoon alsho. but afternoon taking my bath. i reallie cooled myself down n hav decided to gt thru tis hurdle no matter how long its goin to take. hahax. *cheeries*

hmm.

2006-05-10T21:00:00.000+08:00

hm. jus broken up wid him. ya. feeling down. but trying to control. hm. reallie nid someone now. haix. nvm. im sho heartbroken. haix. but nvm. i reallie cant control myself. cryingg sho terriblie now. haix. his da first guy i loved sho much. nvm. no point saying tis les. if one party sees no point in carrying on. even if i cling on hard alsho no use des. hm. i will try my best to get over him des. i hope sho. hm. my heart achingg sho much. haix. i've gotta keep tis behind mie. keep all my sweet memories deep down in my heart. i have to learn to let go.

yeahhx =))

2006-05-10T20:21:00.000+08:00

wooo. exams over les. finallie. heex. todae ish last paper(lit). hahax. dadadax. todae des mood quite gud sia. i alsho dunoo y lehx. heex. hm. last nite cried alittle. but nvm. tat was ytd. todae ish todae =)) hahax. hm. tml no nid go skoo!!! yeahhx. can sleep til late late tml les. thurs.fri.sat.sun.mon. wooo. continuous five daes no nid attend skoo. heex. can b real pigg les. hahax. hm. todae des exam horx. mie feel tat da section c ish diff sia. hahax. but bo bian. its over les. hahax. hm. mie one part of question use bout one pg. sho totallie use five n a half pgs. heex. hm. dunoo why sia. todae des mood reallie gud =)) chatting wid him n toby now. hahax. hm. kekex. update when gt other thinggs to say k. huggies.

arhhh.

2006-05-09T20:46:00.000+08:00

haix. chem sure fail les. its sho hard. n i didnt reallie studie much fer it. hm. drinkingg soup now. heex. yums yums. hm. dunoo y. feel lyk cryingg again. haix. life reallie sucks. frenship turning bad. relationship turning sour. cant stand it les. im breakingg down. haix. stressed out. why ish my life tis way. i reallie hate it. hm. sometimes i reallie dunoo wat to do. at lost. hm. sent him sms but i was wondering if it do make anie difference. i guess not bahx. haix. i dunoo. im terriblie upset. arhhh. freakking shit. we turned out to b lyk strangers toking. its sho da.. haix. i dunoo. feeling sho vex now. ahhh. haix. dunch noe how to rite on les. nites.

sho cold of u.

2006-05-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

hm. why. i jus cant understand why. why da way he say things turn out sho cold. haix. even if he trying to say sth cant he jus say it normallie? why seem sho cold. haix. cryingg now. i dunoo. he jus said two words n went offline. (gtg.b) lolx. i was lyk onlie 4 alphabets. hahax. damn disppointed. i onlie noe i will nv treat him tis way. but i understand tat even if u treat him tis way. it doesnt mean tat he hav to treat u tis way too. hm. he ask mie if i can accept his character. im sure tat i can. if not i wun even lyk him in da first place. hm. but u noe. now im jus feeling sho heartache. haix. wiping off my tears gtg sleep les. ya. nitex.

...

2006-05-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

hm. da way we chat seems sho odd todae. i dunoo. more strange than usual. i dunoo. haix. its lyk. sho da fren? n dunch even seem lyk gud frens. hm. how. bit vex. alittle nt in da mood les. i jus miss evryth bout da past. hahax. hm. wondering wats da time now. but lazie go take my fone see da time. hahax. sho piggie rites. hm. share. all da probs stil boils down to da word SHARE. hm. i was tinking tat if u reallie love da person. u will share wid him/her naturallie. hm. then isit mayb bcos we didnt love deep enuff? hm. tat was wat my fren told mie. hm. asked him if he agree or disagree but he ended up misunderstanding mie. haix. heartbroken. sobs. do i seem lyk da type of person hu will purposelie ask thinggs to hint stuff? haix. reallie upset. i got to pack up my mood n get back to my usual self. hm. kk. gudnitex. huggies.

i must pass chem. n i hope i will =))

2006-05-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

hm. doin some chemical eqns now. hahax. practice makes perfect u noe. hahax. but i guess fer mie horx. practice makes da most a pass. hahax. wateva. jus hope to pass chem tml. pray hard.todae des geog n add maths paper sho damn hard lahx. die les lahx. haix. mie dunch wan fail again les u noe. sobs sobs. bit pek cek. hahax. evrieone look sho listless n seem as if they hav jus fought a war jus now. hahax. fanny look sho wild? i dunoo how to describe her xpression. hahax. her face look alittle pale n shocked. hahax. then yvonne look bit lyk auntie. hahax. she gotta pek cek face. LOLx. cos she nv c gt y2 in da question then she nv put in. hm. after exam jiu go hme lo wid june n yvonne. bought bubble tea again. heex. yvonne bought strawberrie milk tea des. she there shaking her tea then i alsho dunoo how to say but da bubble tea jus ended up on da ground. hahax. burst. hahax. somehow it was mie n her fault. but i guess im in da bigger fault sho jiu pay her to let her buy again lo. hahax. lolx. then tis time horx. her bubble tea got less pearls n less strawberrie thinggie. HAHAx. then later we jiu ended up saying tat it was wendy's fault. LOLx. can say say say til maths fault then link to her ones. hahax. interestingg. hm. gtg studie again les lahx. *NO SLACKING-sign pasted on head* hahax.

all problems are tests to a relationship.

2006-05-07T21:21:00.000+08:00

hm. trying to maintain my calmness. hm. y our relationship sho da up n down des? lolx. he went offline les. saying tat he bit no mood les. hm. when i was no mood. i stil will try to b happie n chat wid him. but now. hm. i dunoo. mayb diff ppl hav diff way of tinking bahx. hm. all tis stuff happen at da wrong time. now exam period. now losing my mood. trying veh hard to to sigh. not to tear. hm. i believe tat probs r both parties cause des. actions n response. hm. i wish our relationship was stil lyk last yr. when we jus started. it was reallie nice n sweet n nt much probs. but evryth changed. evryth will change. its natural i guess. da way we chat. da way i treat him. da way he response to mie. all changed. i rmb we were reallie sweet at da first 3 mths. sweet memories. but now. hm. if i ask him da question tat i hav asked him during da first 3 mths of our relationship. his response will b different. i hav tried lots of times les. nt as sweet. nt as loving. i guess its da same fer mie too bahx. mayb i responded diffly to da same question too. jus tat im unaware. leavingg a question in my thoughts: ish there reallie true love. isit true tat evryth on earth will change except love if u reallie love him/her deep enuff?

stress~~

2006-05-07T20:05:00.000+08:00

sho freakiing stress now lo. tml des exam ish geog n add maths!! OMG rites? hahax. my sets n logarithms horx. sho da lan. hahax. hope i will pass bahx. pray hard. as fer geog horx. mie wan cryy man. tat time gotta a1. now if get veh lousie sure veh disppointed des. but fer sure will get lower markks. tis time sho manie chptrs. all hard hard des. hahax. jus hope to pass all da subjts tis time. dunch care ish wat marks. all pass jiu can les. **but tats alreadie a hard goal** hahax. hm. his fone spoil rmb? miss his sms. but aiya. i dunoo. hm. sms few times todae. wonder if he recieves them. tried calling him cos wan chat. but. nv ans. hm. feeling bit low todae. now tok to him in msn alsho no reply. lolx. i dunoo. somethinggs are jus seem to be missing. haix. exams over les then settle bahx. hahax. mus keep myself in gud mood. gud spirit. hm. he replied les. he was bathing jus now. lolx. hm. my sista n daddie jus came up. they jus now go minimart buy some snacks n ice cream. hahax. they bought a cravio or cravo dunoo wat des ice cream fer mie. hahax. hm. yums yums. hahax. later then eat. lolx. goin studie again les. buh bye. huggies.

ahhh.

2006-05-05T16:54:00.000+08:00

haix. feel strange again. tis few days y mie n him when we chat. its jus strange. suddenlie lyk nth much to chat bout. not tat sweet alsho les. i dunoo. hm. dunch tok bout tat les. hm. finallie. its fri les. hahax. weekends can rest les. heex. had bubble tea on my way hme. peach flavor des. yums yums. da pearls sho chewie. nice nice. heex. mie feel lyk eating lollipop now. hahax. ewww. y mie keep eating sweet stuff. veh fat des lo. hahax. hm. stil rmb tat mie n him gt one blog. but. aiya. its lyk sho da. hahax. i dunoo. last yr nv update til now. hahax. nvm. sianx. yawnx. feeling bit sleepie. blog again at nites k. buh byee..

sho worn outt.

2006-05-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

*arbish* feeling veh tired now. hahax. haix. bit stomach ache now lo. ewww. tml exam des subjt ish chi!! hahax. hm. dunch noe wat to blogg les lehx. oh ya. todae went out wid him. heex. nice dae. hahax. yx say mie todae in gud mood cos mie veh talkative todae!! hahax. lolx. huggies.

i sense 'wrongness'

2006-05-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

hm. studyingg my physics now. last chapter to go les!! jia you!! hahax. jus nw go study wid joseph. actuallie alsho hav june n yvonne. hahax. hm. bought a lollipop. hahax. yums yums. heex. hm. maths revise hao les. nw left wid my physics. hm. gotta buck upp les. yups. hm. feel sth wrong btw mie n him again. jus lyk ytd. although betta than ytd but stil gt da sense of 'wrongness' hahax. sth lacking again. y mie alwaex feel tis way ones? hm. but hav to put tis aside fer da time beingg. hahax. cos now exam period!! damn important lo. mus pass all da subjts. its a must to mie. my goal. hahax. huggies. gotta go studie les.

bottled up.

2006-05-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

feeling pek cek. upset. hm. asked him if we will last fer 3 yrs. he said its unpredictable. haix. i dunoo. shld i listen to my daddie? hm. toby said: if u love him. u will wait. hm. i gt say i dunch love him mahx? lolx. mie jus wan noe hw long we will last. how deep ish deep? hm. anie machine tat could test how deep he loves mie n vice versa? hahax. mie bit sot sot les. todae des conversation wid him seem to b lackingg of sth. i dunoo. nt tat sweet les. jus dunch feel da same

gt sth nt there. hm. u noe. alwaex when thinggs dunch feel right. i will start to b paranoid again. haix. hm. mus feel normal by tonite. cos tml exam. cannt affect it. hm. chat alittle while wid him. feel bit better les. he offline les. cos his gm nagging. hm. guess mie goin orh orh alsho les. eyes bit pain sia. hahax. nites.

sighs

2006-05-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

haix. i dunoo how to say. jus feel lyk sighing~~

dadadax.

2006-05-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

hm. went out to study wid him todae. hahax. hm. guess wat. no study ones lo. hahax. wait. ish gt study. bout 2 pg onlie. hahax. *distracted* lolx. we go mos there 'study'. then da stupid person there say nw peak hr cannt study there. wat da hell. then he jiu go buy food. then after tat da ass person stil come say cannt study there. wats her prob man. gt buy food les then mie open my bk alsho cannt uh. somemore there stil gt seats lo. lolx. after tat jiu no study les. cos alsho cant concentrate. hahax. sit there draw stars. lolx. afterwards jiu go minitoons wan buy sock fer his eeyore. cos mine hav sock les(hisone). then he dunch hav sho jiu wan go buy lo. but eww. dunch hav pink des. cos mine blue. sho his one shld b pinkk. hahax. no hav sho nxt time then buy lo. causewaypt des aircon sho cold!! hahax. go popular wan buy notebk. but um. no nice ones lehx. hahax. sianxx. then jiu go take bus lo. he stil hav tuition at 3. hahax. he pei mie go hme first. *sweet* heex. hm. go voideck sit sit awhile then he nid go les. but after tat he call his fren n dunch noe say wat des then jiu can pei mie longer. hahax. *ilu* when i reach hme. my cousin at my hse les. lolx. mie eat ice creamm. lolx. veh fat les stil eat fatty stuff. hahax. then after tat do ss mindmaps. do til halfway sianxx again les. miss him. *sobs* guess he haven reach hme bahx. his tuition at serangoon lo! sho far rites. hahax. hm. waitingg fer him come online. cant sms les lo. his fone sot sot les. eww. haix. hm. tml jiu exam les. eng p1 n p2. *pa pa* hahax. btw. he promised mie nt to drink les. hahax. *gou gou shou* hm. *smiles* hahax. goin find sth do les. buh bye. huggies.

i cant accept that.

2006-04-29T19:57:00.000+08:00

haix. u told mie tat u gt drunkk. hahax. u noe sth. i dunch lyk guys hu drink and smoke. n now ur tellingg mie tat u drinkk? hahax. i dunoo. hm. i hav no rights to tell u nt to drinkk lo. hu m i? lolx. hm. i dunoo u les. i wunch noe guys hu drink. even if da sky ish falling. u alsho shldnt drink jus cos ur vexed or wat. its an excuse. hm. mayb its normal fer guys to drinkk. but too bad. im jus one mad gal hu dunch wan my guy to drinkk. wateva. bit shocked. bit pissed off. bit upset. bit lost. wat shld i do. hm. nth. hahax. jus take it as nth happen uh. i dunoo. perhaps its nt a big thingg to u. but to mie. its important. ahh. im jus mad. hahax. pure madness. jus hope tat he wun drinkk again bahx..

once more.

2006-04-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

hahax. sianxx les. he til nw alsho nv reply. miss call him. but no use alsho. hahax. nvm. sianx. nt first time alsho les. aiya. y b sho dependent? hahax. hm. one nite no chat alsho wun die ones rites? hm. dunch tell mie ncc end til sho late worx? or he go church? lolx. wat m i sayingg. aniehow guessing onlie. hahax. hm. chatting wid my cousin nw. she sec one. hahax. hm. boredd. guess goin sleep awhile laterr bahx. mayb tml goin studie after da chem remedial. actuallie wan ask him go des. but dunch even noe if he free. hahax. hm. nvm. studie on my own alsho can des. hm. *yawns* alittle bit tired but nt sleepie. hahax. funnie horx. mayb revise my chem first then go orh orh bahx. hahax. ya. hm. dadadax. table bit messie. ahh. i cant stand luan luan stuff ones. mie goin pack up my table. clear my stuff les. hahax. update u tml k? huggies. nites.

tinkingg

2006-04-28T20:08:00.000+08:00

hm. da last sms i receive frm him was at 11 plus todae. hm. y no reply mie. sobs sobs. come online but he nt online. ncc til sho late uh? hm. playingg maple. bit sianxx. hm. todae stomach nt tat cramp les. hahax. hm. got da news south wales sci thinggie todae. siannx. alwaex gt participation des. waste my time to take part. bo liaox. sho manie questions dunoo hw to do ones. hahax. after tat go fer chem consultation. til bout 5. hm. raining heavilie lo. then mie shi jia n yvonne together go take train hme. go buy a yamcake n a curriepuff. hahax. tats my lunch. hahax. hm. then rain damn heavie lo. scared bag wet wet sho jiu carrie my bag in frnt lo. stil taking minghui des emaths bk. hahax. he no come skoo todae. then wan mie hlp take his emaths bk. eww. my bag sho heavie les stil nid hlp him take u noes. ke lianx. hahax. tml stil gt chem remedial frm 9 to 10. hm. but at least dunch nid wake up earlie. can sleep alittle longer. heex. *oinks* waiting fer his sms/come online. hahax. hm. dadadadax. mie sho bored lo. gtg find sth do les. buh bye. huggies.

feeling alittle of evryth.

2006-04-27T21:32:00.000+08:00

feeling abit pek cek. abit sianx. abit angriie. abit upset. abit of almost evry mood. guess im jus having my usual moodswingg again bahx. i dunch noe. hm. cos gt tat one u noe. *winks* hahax. hm. sianx. he chatting on da fone wid his fren. say wan chat wid mie alsho. but aiya. hm. toby having his tuition. no one pei mie les. usuallie ish both of them hu pei mie des. nw both alsho bz. hm. mie alsho dunch wan disturb lahx. hm. went to take alook at da colinandkero blogg. hahax. they look bit funnie?? i dunch noe either. hahax. hm. colin looks cute. pity tat he's a gay. hahax. took a longg glance at xiaxue blogg alshoo. she uses a lot of 'fuck' words. hahax. nvm. mie alsho as vulgar des. hahax. hm. blog ish to rite all tat u tink des mahx. no control. heex. hm. jus realised tat justina gotta blogg too. m i bit slow? sorrie if i m. hahax. saw her blog thru limeis one. hahax. found out tat evry bodie hav diff problems. mie enjoy riting evryth in my baobei blogg. it may seem boringg to u. but meaningful to mie. let mie scream out my anger. cry out my tears. whisper out my secrets. share out my happiness. heex. sometimes. blogging reallie changes my mood. after i pour out all da stuffs i wanna say. i feel loads better. feel tat i can breathe better. reallie. mie no bluff u ones lo. hahax. nid to learn to b independent. shldnt alwaex rely on him tat much. wat if he leaves mie one dae? then by then. i will hav a damn hard life. btw. i DUNCH WISH TAT HE WILL LEAVE MIE DES. hahax. dunch misunderstood. hahax. ya. hm. feeling alittle happie nw. i alsho dunoo y. hm. reallie damn MOOD SWINGG. swing sho fast ones. jus nw sho negative. nw bit positive. hahax. hav lunch wid joseph at cavana. he's actuallie quite a nice guy. hm. i mean NICE AS A FREN. hahax. yups. noe him fer 2 yrs++ les. hahax. time fliess(old old line). blehx. mie n him alsho six mths++ les. i was tinking wat i learn frm da relationship. wat i hope to achieve frm da relationship. wat i hope to stop in da relationship. hm. trying to operate my braiin nw. but gt bit prob. hahax. *toot* mie jus dunch feel lyk sleeping u noe. tis post ish longg. veh longg. hahax. mie veh luo suo rites. ke lian u. read sho manie words des. take it as a practice fer ur oral or reading?? (LAME). hahax. wateva. goin ten les. mie tink of wat jiu typed here. hahax. typingg fer tis blogg fer bout half an hr les lo. longg horx. chang qi po. (long winded woman) lolx. ahhhh. sometimes. ppl around mie r lyk. shoo da dangerous. i dunch noe wat they r up to. evryone seems sho da kong bu lo. =(( kiss gudbye ish jus sho nice. wooo. listening to tat nw. reallie nice. love it. calms mie down u noe. hm. tis songg jus makes me feel. hahax. okie. shall nt say aniemore les. go find other stuff do. hahax. huggies. nites.

nice daee.

2006-04-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

hm. todae physics lesson was quite funn bahx. hahax. we go physics labb. hm. we place da lenses following by da blockage thinggie n da torch lite. eww. can see reflections on da blockage one u noe. mayb ish i suaku but i find it funn. heex. hm. recieved a prank sms. hm. shocked mie alittle. hahax. go out wid him after skoo. saw limei. adeline. vanessa. rachel. hm. hahax. watch reincarnation. find da movie boringg. nt scarie ones. hahax. go voideck sit sit fer bout 2 hrs bahx. hahax. todae ish a nice dae. heex. hm. feeling bit sleepie les lo. huggies.

yawnss.

2006-04-24T20:36:00.000+08:00

hm. lynn n siewhui editing da lilin send them des compo thinggie. its our eng project des. sianx des lahx. bo liaox one. hahax. actuallie todae ish supposed to hav ss test des. but its CANCELLED!!! hurrays. heex. co mie nv studie tats y im happie.. heex. hm. ms lee said tat i did quite well fer my chem test. but stil haven gt back da test paper yet lo. hm. pray hard tat tml dunch hav da sci quiz thinggie after skoo. cos tml goin out. hahax. hm. getting alittle sleepie les. gotta sleep earlie tonite. hahax. huggies.

tuna?? lolx.

2006-04-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

hm. jus came down from downstairs. cos hlp my mummie buy bread. she making tuna bread. then bread nt enuff sho ask mie go buy lo. jus reach hme nt long ago. bathe hao les. hahax. hm. todae went fer tuition then after tuition jiu go see doctor. doctor see til bout 5 plus then jiu go j8. eat prata. hahax. hm. my sista suddenlie wan buy water bottle. she wan buy da nike one. but onlie left wid pink ones sho she didnt buy. hahax. then later go see nalgene des. she dunch lyk. fussie gal gal. hahax. then she jiu fed up. she seems lyk die die todae alsho mus buy dao water bottle lyk tat. lolx. impatient. hahax.hm. now chatting wid him. find him cute. hahax. i mean da way he do stuff n chat. hahax. tml gt ss test!! haven studie. didnt even read thru lo. hahax. luckilie ish after skoo then test sia. lolx. hm. oops. someone press da doorbell. hmms. lolx. ish sell ice cream des. dadadadax. todae 6 mths les u noe. heex. *ilu*

nite time again les.

2006-04-22T19:07:00.000+08:00

hmms. sho fast. todae sho fast goin endd les. time flies. hahax. lolx. hmms. tml jiu ish 23rd les. heex. mie n him jiu 6 mths les. hmms. *loves*

heex.

2006-04-22T14:17:00.000+08:00

hmms. jus nw at round 1.30 received his replyy.heex. miss him. hmms. guess his ncc ending at 6 plus bahx. happie tat at least gt recieve his sms. heex. hmms. mie goin playy maple les. cya.

boredd.veh bored.

2006-04-22T10:27:00.000+08:00

hmms. sianx. played maple fer awhile but veh sianx les. guess goin take a bath then go studie ss les. last nite gt his replyy. hmms. he said he replied mie at 5 plus ytd but i didnt recieve. lolx. hmms. mie told him tat i feel tat he ish alwaex sho bz lo. then guess wat he says?? hahax. ''tats sth bad bout mie ba. but if u cant take it anymore. u shld noe wat to do ba.'' hmms. noe how i felt? i feel tat he dunch reallie care how i feel. ish tat sho? hmms. to mie. its an irresponsible answer. i dunch noe. hmms. but when i ask if he gt try to make time fer mie. he said ya. wat more can i say. hmms. ppl alreadie tried les yet mie beingg demandingg or sth. i dunoo. toby suggest tat i shld b angriie wid him n let him noe his mistake. but he didnt do anyth wrongg. lolx. hmms. im reallie wondering how much he actuallie loves mie. i feel tat he isnt as sweet as be4 les. hmms. i dunoo. sometimes. i ask him a question which i hav asked him mths ago. da response was lyk diff by quite alot. hmms. ppl do change bahx. all i can do ish put all tis at da back of my mind n hope thinggs change fer da better. sometimes he ish sho nice. sometimes im reallie jus alittle fed up. hmms. guess im too sensitive. hahax. ya.. goin bathe les. hahax. buh byee. shld b back blogging at nite again bahx.

again..

2006-04-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

hmms. come bloggingg again. cos im bored. hahax. hmms. chatting wid lynn my darlingg. he haven come online neither did he reply my sms. feeling sort of low now. but jus alittle. '' if he reallie loves u. he will definitelie make time fer u'' how true ish tis. hmms. i dunoo. tats wat toby said to mie. one mth nv go out les. mayb his reallie bz. hmms. 9 plus plus les. getting alittle tired alsho. heex. shld i wait til he comes online? hmms. nv replyy mie. bit upset. but aiya. dunch tok bout tat les. hmms. yawns. 15 more min to 10. hahax. actuallie wan ask him if tml wan go studie des. but ferget it bahx. hmms.