haix. u told mie tat u gt drunkk. hahax. u noe sth. i dunch lyk guys hu drink and smoke. n now ur tellingg mie tat u drinkk? hahax. i dunoo. hm. i hav no rights to tell u nt to drinkk lo. hu m i? lolx. hm. i dunoo u les. i wunch noe guys hu drink. even if da sky ish falling. u alsho shldnt drink jus cos ur vexed or wat. its an excuse. hm. mayb its normal fer guys to drinkk. but too bad. im jus one mad gal hu dunch wan my guy to drinkk. wateva. bit shocked. bit pissed off. bit upset. bit lost. wat shld i do. hm. nth. hahax. jus take it as nth happen uh. i dunoo. perhaps its nt a big thingg to u. but to mie. its important. ahh. im jus mad. hahax. pure madness. jus hope tat he wun drinkk again bahx..
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time;Saturday, April 29, 2006
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Friday, April 28, 2006
once more.
hahax. sianxx les. he til nw alsho nv reply. miss call him. but no use alsho. hahax. nvm. sianx. nt first time alsho les. aiya. y b sho dependent? hahax. hm. one nite no chat alsho wun die ones rites? hm. dunch tell mie ncc end til sho late worx? or he go church? lolx. wat m i sayingg. aniehow guessing onlie. hahax. hm. chatting wid my cousin nw. she sec one. hahax. hm. boredd. guess goin sleep awhile laterr bahx. mayb tml goin studie after da chem remedial. actuallie wan ask him go des. but dunch even noe if he free. hahax. hm. nvm. studie on my own alsho can des. hm. *yawns* alittle bit tired but nt sleepie. hahax. funnie horx. mayb revise my chem first then go orh orh bahx. hahax. ya. hm. dadadax. table bit messie. ahh. i cant stand luan luan stuff ones. mie goin pack up my table. clear my stuff les. hahax. update u tml k? huggies. nites.
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time;Friday, April 28, 2006
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*tinkingg*
hm. da last sms i receive frm him was at 11 plus todae. hm. y no reply mie. sobs sobs. come online but he nt online. ncc til sho late uh? hm. playingg maple. bit sianxx. hm. todae stomach nt tat cramp les. hahax. hm. got da news south wales sci thinggie todae. siannx. alwaex gt participation des. waste my time to take part. bo liaox. sho manie questions dunoo hw to do ones. hahax. after tat go fer chem consultation. til bout 5. hm. raining heavilie lo. then mie shi jia n yvonne together go take train hme. go buy a yamcake n a curriepuff. hahax. tats my lunch. hahax. hm. then rain damn heavie lo. scared bag wet wet sho jiu carrie my bag in frnt lo. stil taking minghui des emaths bk. hahax. he no come skoo todae. then wan mie hlp take his emaths bk. eww. my bag sho heavie les stil nid hlp him take u noes. ke lianx. hahax. tml stil gt chem remedial frm 9 to 10. hm. but at least dunch nid wake up earlie. can sleep alittle longer. heex. *oinks* waiting fer his sms/come online. hahax. hm. dadadadax. mie sho bored lo. gtg find sth do les. buh bye. huggies.
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time;Friday, April 28, 2006
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Thursday, April 27, 2006
feeling alittle of evryth.
feeling abit pek cek. abit sianx. abit angriie. abit upset. abit of almost evry mood. guess im jus having my usual moodswingg again bahx. i dunch noe. hm. cos gt tat one u noe. *winks* hahax. hm. sianx. he chatting on da fone wid his fren. say wan chat wid mie alsho. but aiya. hm. toby having his tuition. no one pei mie les. usuallie ish both of them hu pei mie des. nw both alsho bz. hm. mie alsho dunch wan disturb lahx. hm. went to take alook at da colinandkero blogg. hahax. they look bit funnie?? i dunch noe either. hahax. hm. colin looks cute. pity tat he's a gay. hahax. took a longg glance at xiaxue blogg alshoo. she uses a lot of 'fuck' words. hahax. nvm. mie alsho as vulgar des. hahax. hm. blog ish to rite all tat u tink des mahx. no control. heex. hm. jus realised tat justina gotta blogg too. m i bit slow? sorrie if i m. hahax. saw her blog thru limeis one. hahax. found out tat evry bodie hav diff problems. mie enjoy riting evryth in my baobei blogg. it may seem boringg to u. but meaningful to mie. let mie scream out my anger. cry out my tears. whisper out my secrets. share out my happiness. heex. sometimes. blogging reallie changes my mood. after i pour out all da stuffs i wanna say. i feel loads better. feel tat i can breathe better. reallie. mie no bluff u ones lo. hahax. nid to learn to b independent. shldnt alwaex rely on him tat much. wat if he leaves mie one dae? then by then. i will hav a damn hard life. btw. i DUNCH WISH TAT HE WILL LEAVE MIE DES. hahax. dunch misunderstood. hahax. ya. hm. feeling alittle happie nw. i alsho dunoo y. hm. reallie damn MOOD SWINGG. swing sho fast ones. jus nw sho negative. nw bit positive. hahax. hav lunch wid joseph at cavana. he's actuallie quite a nice guy. hm. i mean NICE AS A FREN. hahax. yups. noe him fer 2 yrs++ les. hahax. time fliess(old old line). blehx. mie n him alsho six mths++ les. i was tinking wat i learn frm da relationship. wat i hope to achieve frm da relationship. wat i hope to stop in da relationship. hm. trying to operate my braiin nw. but gt bit prob. hahax. *toot* mie jus dunch feel lyk sleeping u noe. tis post ish longg. veh longg. hahax. mie veh luo suo rites. ke lian u. read sho manie words des. take it as a practice fer ur oral or reading?? (LAME). hahax. wateva. goin ten les. mie tink of wat jiu typed here. hahax. typingg fer tis blogg fer bout half an hr les lo. longg horx. chang qi po. (long winded woman) lolx. ahhhh. sometimes. ppl around mie r lyk. shoo da dangerous. i dunch noe wat they r up to. evryone seems sho da kong bu lo. =(( kiss gudbye ish jus sho nice. wooo. listening to tat nw. reallie nice. love it. calms mie down u noe. hm. tis songg jus makes me feel. hahax. okie. shall nt say aniemore les. go find other stuff do. hahax. huggies. nites.
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time;Thursday, April 27, 2006
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
nice daee.
hm. todae physics lesson was quite funn bahx. hahax. we go physics labb. hm. we place da lenses following by da blockage thinggie n da torch lite. eww. can see reflections on da blockage one u noe. mayb ish i suaku but i find it funn. heex. hm. recieved a prank sms. hm. shocked mie alittle. hahax. go out wid him after skoo. saw limei. adeline. vanessa. rachel. hm. hahax. watch reincarnation. find da movie boringg. nt scarie ones. hahax. go voideck sit sit fer bout 2 hrs bahx. hahax. todae ish a nice dae. heex. hm. feeling bit sleepie les lo. huggies.
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time;Tuesday, April 25, 2006
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Monday, April 24, 2006
yawnss.
hm. lynn n siewhui editing da lilin send them des compo thinggie. its our eng project des. sianx des lahx. bo liaox one. hahax. actuallie todae ish supposed to hav ss test des. but its CANCELLED!!! hurrays. heex. co mie nv studie tats y im happie.. heex. hm. ms lee said tat i did quite well fer my chem test. but stil haven gt back da test paper yet lo. hm. pray hard tat tml dunch hav da sci quiz thinggie after skoo. cos tml goin out. hahax. hm. getting alittle sleepie les. gotta sleep earlie tonite. hahax. huggies.
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time;Monday, April 24, 2006
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Sunday, April 23, 2006
tuna?? lolx.
hm. jus came down from downstairs. cos hlp my mummie buy bread. she making tuna bread. then bread nt enuff sho ask mie go buy lo. jus reach hme nt long ago. bathe hao les. hahax. hm. todae went fer tuition then after tuition jiu go see doctor. doctor see til bout 5 plus then jiu go j8. eat prata. hahax. hm. my sista suddenlie wan buy water bottle. she wan buy da nike one. but onlie left wid pink ones sho she didnt buy. hahax. then later go see nalgene des. she dunch lyk. fussie gal gal. hahax. then she jiu fed up. she seems lyk die die todae alsho mus buy dao water bottle lyk tat. lolx. impatient. hahax.hm. now chatting wid him. find him cute. hahax. i mean da way he do stuff n chat. hahax. tml gt ss test!! haven studie. didnt even read thru lo. hahax. luckilie ish after skoo then test sia. lolx. hm. oops. someone press da doorbell. hmms. lolx. ish sell ice cream des. dadadadax. todae 6 mths les u noe. heex. *ilu*
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time;Sunday, April 23, 2006
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
nite time again les.
hmms. sho fast. todae sho fast goin endd les. time flies. hahax. lolx. hmms. tml jiu ish 23rd les. heex. mie n him jiu 6 mths les. hmms. *loves*
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time;Saturday, April 22, 2006
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heex.
hmms. jus nw at round 1.30 received his replyy.heex. miss him. hmms. guess his ncc ending at 6 plus bahx. happie tat at least gt recieve his sms. heex. hmms. mie goin playy maple les. cya.
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time;Saturday, April 22, 2006
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boredd.veh bored.
hmms. sianx. played maple fer awhile but veh sianx les. guess goin take a bath then go studie ss les. last nite gt his replyy. hmms. he said he replied mie at 5 plus ytd but i didnt recieve. lolx. hmms. mie told him tat i feel tat he ish alwaex sho bz lo. then guess wat he says?? hahax. ''tats sth bad bout mie ba. but if u cant take it anymore. u shld noe wat to do ba.'' hmms. noe how i felt? i feel tat he dunch reallie care how i feel. ish tat sho? hmms. to mie. its an irresponsible answer. i dunch noe. hmms. but when i ask if he gt try to make time fer mie. he said ya. wat more can i say. hmms. ppl alreadie tried les yet mie beingg demandingg or sth. i dunoo. toby suggest tat i shld b angriie wid him n let him noe his mistake. but he didnt do anyth wrongg. lolx. hmms. im reallie wondering how much he actuallie loves mie. i feel tat he isnt as sweet as be4 les. hmms. i dunoo. sometimes. i ask him a question which i hav asked him mths ago. da response was lyk diff by quite alot. hmms. ppl do change bahx. all i can do ish put all tis at da back of my mind n hope thinggs change fer da better. sometimes he ish sho nice. sometimes im reallie jus alittle fed up. hmms. guess im too sensitive. hahax. ya.. goin bathe les. hahax. buh byee. shld b back blogging at nite again bahx.
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time;Saturday, April 22, 2006
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Friday, April 21, 2006
again..
hmms. come bloggingg again. cos im bored. hahax. hmms. chatting wid lynn my darlingg. he haven come online neither did he reply my sms. feeling sort of low now. but jus alittle. '' if he reallie loves u. he will definitelie make time fer u'' how true ish tis. hmms. i dunoo. tats wat toby said to mie. one mth nv go out les. mayb his reallie bz. hmms. 9 plus plus les. getting alittle tired alsho. heex. shld i wait til he comes online? hmms. nv replyy mie. bit upset. but aiya. dunch tok bout tat les. hmms. yawns. 15 more min to 10. hahax. actuallie wan ask him if tml wan go studie des. but ferget it bahx. hmms.
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time;Friday, April 21, 2006
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hardened??
hm. its a fri todae. sianx. sms him quite a few times but i onlie gt 1 reply. wat da.. hm. nvm. getting used to it les bahx. tat time his fone spoil til nw. hm. didnt reallie chat thru sms tat much les. hm. sometimes. i reallie wonderr if he stil loves mie. how i noe when he ish losing his feelings fer mie. hm. tinking alittle too much? hahax. how deep can a person fall in love. hmms. all tis bit cheem des questions. heex. nvm. im jus alittle too bored. brain nth to tink about tats y lo. hahax. hm. need keep myself occupied les. cos exams r comingg!! 10 daes countdown. eww. sho fast. mie planned abit les. tis weekend. i will b studying ss n physics. then if gt time practise maths alsho. hahax. hm. tink tml wan findd someone pei mie go studie. but onlie one. i cant grp studie cos too manie ppl then mie cant concentrate. hahax. mie ish da type of person hu ish easilie distracted lo. weak point!! hahax. hm. jus nw go cycling wid minghui. meet him up at 3.45 but he was late!! called his hse n hp but nobodie answered. strange.. cos usuallie his mum will b at hme des. hm. after calling a few times. his mother finallie pick up his fone. she say his bike punctured ask mie wait awhile lo. then mie waited fer another 15 min then he arrived. hahax. lolx. by then horx. da sky alsho bit darkened n windie les. sho we didnt cycled far lo. we cycled at my neighbourhood there. then there gt bungalows. there quite bigg. nearlie gt lost. all thanks to minghui des 'fangxianggan' then we gt out des. hahax. cycle til halfway rain lo. lolx. suayy. then we try cycle faster but it was an up slope!! a steep one somemore. hahax. then we drag our bikes lo. hahax. but after awhile jiu no rain les. we go voideck chit chat lo. hahax. we share da drink MUG. then he spilled til his entire face!! i was there laughing. heex. oh ya. tml ish minghui des bdae worx. hahax. nid tink wat to gt fer him les. mayb pass his present to him nxt wk lo. hahax. bo bian. dadadax. endding here les bahx. huggies.
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time;Friday, April 21, 2006
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
zhuzhu.
hm. woke up at roundd 8 tis morningg. hahax. bit earlie lo. todae no skoo-lingg cos ytd ish sports dae. ya. hm. at 1.30 go orh orh again. slept til 4 sth near 5. hahax. zhu les lo. sleep sho much todae. jus now rain again sia. but nt coolingg at all. mie sweating alittle now. hahax. hm. he nt online sia. hm. sms him nv reply. guess he nv bringg his fone or or sth. sianxx. ask yinxiu then she say he gt council wid lilian. hm. hu ish lilian. hahax. hm. play maple awhile but veh sianx sho jiu logout les. now xploring youtube. tat dae erwin says my video inside!! oh man. wat video. lolx. sho mie nw trying findd lo. hahax. im bored!! ewww. jus now stil mistook a guy fer a fren. mie sho blurr. da guy ish actuallie someone hu knew mie from maple des. he sucks man. he ish disgustingg. dunch lyk him. blocked him. hahax. wateva. hm. he online les. okie. buh bye. huggies.
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time;Thursday, April 20, 2006
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
hm.hm.hm.
sianx. tonite sho cold cold des. y tis few daes kept rainingg des. make mie feel lyk sleeping lo. hahax. pigg. hm. todae gt 2 tests sia. actuallie ish 3 des. but luckilie geog one cancelled cos of fire drill!! thanks to fire drill. hahax. hm. but stil gt chem n maths test lo. i bet im gonna score badlie des. sobs sobs. hm. he no time pei mie go out. hm. nvm. yeahhs. thurs no skoo. hahax. can sleep lots les. finallie. hahax. haix. tml morningg nid wake up earlie lo. jus bcos of tat stupid presentation. eww. i hope i wun b tongue tied tml. or else horx.... sure damn paiseh des!! hahax. hm. i keep asking myself tis question. wat isit tat i wan from my life. wat isit. hm. tryingg to figure out nw. heex. signing off. huggies.
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time;Tuesday, April 18, 2006
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Monday, April 17, 2006
im madd.insane.
haix. y ps mie. say weiis les stil go offline. lyk ignoring my weiis lyk tat. haix. i dunch lyk it. i hate tis feelingg. haix. no materr wat. i nid control my mood. CONTROL. i will onlie do da right thingg when im in da right mind. wrong mood= wrong mind= wrong thinggs. hahax. watever. tml stil gt three tests. maths. geog n chem. nid try gt to sleep les. ya. nites.
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time;Monday, April 17, 2006
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my thoughts.my mindset.
hm. todae morningg cant reallie get up. sleep til veh shuangg. heex. hm. go skoo les then nt tat sianx les bahx. but first lesson was physics!! it make mie feel sleepie again. hahax. i rather stay in hall fer tat funnie funnie chapel thinggie lo. hahax. vanessa bought some cereals n diestive biscuits to skoo. then in hall we were eatingg awaex. hahax. blehx. da cereals gt dried cranberries des. i love it. heex. yums yums. hm. lets tok back to da physics lesson. actuallie veh bored des. but luckilie gt lynn pei mie. heex. she ish my best darlingg. no ps mie ones. hahax. she said tat her instinct tells her tat my relationship wid him gt probs. hm. i guess she ish right. i feel tat sth ish wrongg too. i can feel da 'wrongness' but yet i dunoo wats wrongg. haix. i guess im stil veh sensitive to his response bahx. hm. sometimes. i feel tat when we chat. he answers mie fer da sake of answeringg. i dunoo. i noe i shldnt say all tis. but its reallie how i feel. ahh. im contradicted by myself les. lynn says tat she tinks tat mie n him lack of communication. hm. i tink mie n him des communication time ish enuff. but its jus tat we dunch share enuff. we dunch bond tat well bcos we dunch share well. agree?? lolx. hm. i wann tell him bout how i feel n sho on n sho fore. but. i guess tat when i tell him. he will sure feel down des. haix. i dunch wan him to feel bad or wat. wat i wish fer ish both of us to solve wat we nid to solve. n nt get into lousie moods bcos of tat.
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time;Monday, April 17, 2006
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
in skoo librarie nw.
sianxx. in skoo librarie nw lo. doin lit project wid lynn. siewhui. rachel n june. sianx ahh. eww. he nv go marshall meetingg then nw at frens hse. wat da. haix. i dunch understand him n i dunch wan to understand les. im too tired fer all those liaox. to u horx. frenship or relationship more important lehx? hard choice rites. hahax. all those rubbish isnt goin to make my mood go down to a straight low. i shldnt let all these spoil my mood. heex. huggies.
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time;Thursday, April 13, 2006
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
highest mood.
heex. last nite slept damn well. hahax. feel gud todae. sleep well = gud dae?? makes sense actuallie des. hahax. todae bit suay actuualie. gt bball then mie go fer lunch. leavingg my bag in my class. after lunch. when mie n pompom goin put plates. he told mie tat lynn cryingg behindd skoo n ask mie whre siew hui. hm. i said i dunoo cos i fergt tat siewhui hav eng remedial lessons. hahax.blurr pigg horx? then afterwards. we went to take our baggs. i saw siewhui n class n i ask her y she nt wid lynn n told her tat lynn ish cryingg. my voice ish loud n it interrupted mrs soh. i didnt realised she was in da class!! hahax. then she buay songg. she ask mie to stop talking les lo. but i ask her to wait cos siewhui ask mie whre lynn ish mahx. then mie nid tell her. then after telling i jiu immediatelie took my bagg n go. but when i was about to walk out of da class. mrs soh stopped mie lo. ew. she ask mie to rite an apology letter of 500 words!! she raised her voice at mie. my tears nearlie dropped. oh mann. u noe wat. i hate ppl to raise their voice at mie. i will surelie cry des. hahax. mie rote da letter in 15 min time. hahax. crapp it.hahax. when i go toilet change into pe attire. i heard yvonne's voice. she didnt ps mie!! heex. pompom alsho there wid her. heex. im glad i hav such frens. hahax. when playinn bball. i was super duper high. heex. it has been longg since i was last spotted beingg sho high les. hahax. listeningg to songss now. calm mie down. hahax. kekex. gudnitex. huggies.
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time;Tuesday, April 11, 2006
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
i was wrongg.
haix. i didnt expect to feel sho badd n sorrie after telling him how i feel. haix. i tot after sayingg it out. i will feel better. but i was wrongg. WRONGG. haix. i shldnt hav said all those at tis time when he ish actuallie havingg lots of probs alreadie. why cant i jus b understandingg. i reallie hate myself. perhaps im jus too immature. tearingg tonite again wid my heart achingg sho badlie. i seriouslie nid a longg longg rest.
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time;Thursday, April 06, 2006
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
losingg my gripp.
haix. does he understand how i feel. how i tink? hm. or isit tat im jus too paranoid. tinkingg too much? beingg to unreasonable? expectingg too much? haix. y he alwaex seems sho bz. sho bz tat he seems to hav no time fer mie. i feel sho lonelie. sobs sobs. tearingg noww. im sho depressed. perhaps i shld jus learn how to take thinggs more easilie. i shldnt b sho unreasonable. he hav his thinggs to do. mayb im jus sth tat he passes by in his life road. jus wanna pour out all my tears. all my worthless tears.
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time;Wednesday, April 05, 2006
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Monday, April 03, 2006
sleepie pigg.
hm. feelingg sho sleepie da entire dae. slept duringg chem n physics lessons. hahax. slept fer bout 1 hr plus then tat minghui lahx. woke mie up. then jiu cannt gt to sleep les. hahax. hm. mie sucks at all my sciences. nid buck upp les. haix. my chem nid xtra xtra lots lots of help. hahax. im gonna surrender to chem man. its hard to understand fer mie. catch no ball lo. hm. guess tml mayb goin start studie fer exam les bahx. hahax. jia you jia you!!
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time;Monday, April 03, 2006
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Sunday, April 02, 2006
kawaii =))
woke up at 5am todae. damn earlie horx? hahax. but stil okie bahx. woke up sho earlie cos goin cemetry there (my grandmother tomb). hm. i stil rmb tat when my grandmother died. i cried alot alot. i dunch rmb being veh veh close to her. i mean im close to my grandmotherr but nt tat close til da stage tat i could cry til tat badlie. perhaps.i reallie love her alot. i miss my grandmotherr. after those prayinggs. jiu went hme. took a bath then went fer tuition les. hm. aftr tuition jiu go yck meet rachel.june.siewhui n lynn. hm. took a bus to amk librarie. hahax. we nid com do project then rachel ended up callingg lots of ppl. hahax. bought a currie puff n honeydew snowshake.love da pearls. lastlie. we didnt do anyth. we ended up in j8 takingg neoprints. hahax. feelingg tired les. but cannt slp yet. nid see da campus superstar des results. hahax. mie support renfred n teresa!!! jia you!! huggies.
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time;Sunday, April 02, 2006
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Saturday, April 01, 2006
*sick*
haix. earlie in da morningg mie jiu kept sneezingg. now coughingg.eww. im declaringg tat im sick. sobs sobs. woke up at 7 plus todae. veh earlie rites? hahax. kk. going hav my breakfast les. huggiex.
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time;Saturday, April 01, 2006
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